I Can Not Take It Anymore! : ((((

The Story

Hello, everyone! My story is pathetic and sad. It's about education and my parents. I am 23 years old, I had an affective disorder and epilepsy for years from 9 to 22. Then a boy managed to help me stop the pills, which I have not needed for about 5 years, because I am cured. He (the boy) later turned out to be a bully, plus I didn't let him (I'm a virgin). Now I'm 23 and alone without a friend, better, but I cry from time to time mentally, I can't stand it. I want to study higher, I work, and ours and my brother too, but my father does not want to enroll me. According to him, we had loans, and these are only BGN 50 for water per year. I'm in pain, mentally shattered by drugs, going to the doctors, stressful situations, family scandals and, to top it all off, the first alleged love, which without even having sex called me "

" and beat me until I ran away ... why? :(. I'm so sick and sad that it happened to my life.

My mother wants to enroll me, even if we go, but I'm from a small town, the closest is Vratsa, but without my father's wish I don't dare He scolds his mother a lot, he accuses her of infidelity and what not ... bad words are said to each other, especially he and nowhere. The former, and ours are constantly and as if forever fighting. Life is not fair! I, a virgin, innocent and pure, have experienced so many years of nightmare and now ... My sets end, but most, sharpening their friends, using their bodies to pay I don't understand why, that's exactly what happens to me I'm beautiful, tender, vulnerable and sensitive Men look at me but I can't have a relationship without love or use someone for my higher education, it's possible. I just want to study pedagogy or pharmacy. I have an excellent diploma and diplomas from painting exhibitions. What is my vision and intellect for, as I have no support, love, partner or at least our desire to stop arguing with each other? They waste my youth and don't seem to realize it! If I don't have the right to education, I will always be with them and help them. I'm a housewife. Why don't they at least sign me up in absentia, instead of having unrealistic expectations for the expenses. I will do my best to do my homework, not go to parties and not smoke or drink. Here that my morals and virginity only seem to hurt. Every time June comes I cry because there will still be pleas, tears and pain to sign up and what in the end I was left again disappointed and AGAIN again. now I want change for so many years, BUT, alas, it will NEVER happen! The years fly by, I hope something changes! Thanks to everyone who read my story to the end and I know that you will probably judge and insult me, but be happy with me. I just wanted to share here anonymously and at least someone to give me real advice! Maybe you feel sorry for me, but this is life, not everyone has a happy childhood and a smooth education and a good friend in personal terms. I wish all of you on this site, what I did not have a childhood, love, support, happiness and most of all valuable people with whom every moment of your life is easier for you. Thanks again for your time! I just wanted to share here anonymously and at least someone to give me real advice! Maybe you feel sorry for me, but this is life, not everyone has a happy childhood and a smooth education and a good friend in personal terms. I wish all of you on this site, what I did not have a childhood, love, support, happiness and most of all valuable people with whom every moment of your life will be easier for you.

Thanks again for your time! I just wanted to share here anonymously and at least someone to give me real advice! Maybe you feel sorry for me, but this is life, not everyone has a happy childhood and a smooth education and a good friend in personal terms. I wish all of you on this site, what I did not have a childhood, love, support, happiness and most of all valuable people with whom every moment of your life will be easier for you. Thanks again for your time!

Last Updated
September 01, 2020
Author:
lolaclick

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