I Can Not Live Without Her!

My story is very real. It all started 6 years ago. I was 22 and she was 17. I live in a village near Plovdiv and she is in the next village after mine. I have very good friends from her village. One day she just texted me "how are you" I didn't know who it was and I called and she was ashamed. We agreed to see each other in 1-2 days. So it came from her village she was in a white dress, she took my mind .. we went to a cafe on foot, I was so ashamed because I did not go out with such a cool girl .. people looked at me with her and envied .. But I said to myself what do I like as she shows interest in me .. I kissed her then. it was her first kiss. In general, we talked a little and stayed no more than 20 minutes. then we left I took the car from my father and drove it to her village. 1 week later I started taking it from them and we went where we didn't have many good moments. I was the first ... everything was perfect for 2 years. until one day she told me that one Saturday after a disco when I took her to them at 4 o'clock she agreed with a boy to see me behind my back. They were together he took her they drank coffee in them! but something did not happen! She was so sorry she messed with someone else without telling me. I was crazy but I forgave her because I love her and she cried and told me that she loves me ... She promised me that she would be with me and we would tell each other everything. So after 2 weeks I woke up one night when I got home .. He didn't pick up my phone .. so I decided to go to them I started the car and when I went I saw them together in front of them talking in his car. I fucked them and left and it was over. Then I didn't want to have anything to do with this girl anymore. And so a few months passed she went with that boy I spotted them regularly until one day my friends called me that they were in a pub drinking and saw her with him! When they went out and even greeted me rudely ... my nerves just dropped, my curtain fell, I went out after them and we beat it with 2 of my friends in front of the restaurant. Her relationship with him was 2-3 months no more. I even told her that nothing would happen, why is she doing it? After they broke up, I just started a new relationship, I was already seeing another girl and I wanted things to happen just to forget the girl in question ... But I couldn't. I haven't stopped thinking about my first love for so many years ... During this time, when I was dating my new girlfriend, I also wrote a chat pat and sms, proving that I was constantly asking her about her. As she wrote to me on holidays and told me that I miss her, it happened 4-5 times in 2 years. She changed her environment, became famous, started taking pictures, went to various fashion shows .. models and other nonsense .. She went out with all sorts of setters (bloodstains). I can't live without her, I would do anything to get her back. Even my new relationship lasted until 2 months ago I lived with my girlfriend but one day I just got tired and dumped her because I don't love her. You may think I'm crazy for 2 years. what I did with my new girlfriend the days passed the time flew by, but I didn't want to be alone maybe I'll go crazy. Reason to dump her, because I also suspected that she was seeing someone else. I also hacked her face and saw that she had been texting for another 2 months or more ... and most of all she had sent him kisses and said how much she loved him ... it was even better. During this time, when I was with the new girl, I played a game all day and all night. I didn't feel like living. and she didn't help me forget my first love. In February I was alone and I started to think that maybe I have a chance to get the love of my life back .. On March 1st I wrote congratulations and we started texting constantly until I told her I wanted to see her. on March 6 I went to a flower shop and ordered 9 roses by courier delivery. I even wanted to surprise her and wrote a note "I love you from your first love" because I really feel that way. And I'm sure she loves me too, but I'm the first. She didn't expect flowers from me at all ... I think because I had a girlfriend until recently and I will send her something from nowhere. She agreed of course and we went out. We went to a cafe we ​​talked when he was next to me I was constantly trembling I lost my mind .. you know what it is :) after we came home and I told her on the way to get up to drive :) she never drove me and for the first time to trust a girl which drives my car .. She drove without a mistake when we approached the house and I said "what are you going to do now?" Do you want me to show you where I live in my new house because I moved separately from my parents .. I said to drive to at home she answered me I know where you live and we stopped in front of us ... We went home I showed the house inside ... we sat down I opened a bottle of red wine we knocked for cheers and took my hand and ... I started talking about how much I miss that I always hoped to get along and I never stopped thinking about her. I may have been with another but my feelings are completely real to her ... I said a lot of nice things too. Then we went to the other room where I sleep. I took my ashtray and wine glasses ... she sat on the bed and I started stroking her next to her and talking nicely to her and I kissed her once. Then she went to bed and told me to come and hug you on the bed .. I put out my paws and went to hug her .. I was cuddling her constantly and she was answering me and so we hugged without anything happening. 2 hours later she told me to take her to them ... it was 3 hours. We got up and took her .. I was very happy, the next day I started writing to her posthumously for 4, 5, 6 days and so until March 25 we had not seen each other for 1 week on March 26 we agreed to see each other I had planned to cook her spaghetti with nipple but I wasn't sure if we went out if we would go home again. However, I took the necessary things for dinner, then we went out to a cafe again, a lot of general talk and so 30 minutes of coffee. At 9 after that we left I said and is she hungry? She had dinner but was a little hungry and I was driving home. She agreed to do something to her when she saw that I took the spaghetti when we got out of the car and told me that she doesn't like spaghetti :) There is nothing and I said you will love them. Anyway we went home I started making spaghetti and we talked about cooking in general. 1 hour later I served them, we tried them, but I didn't like them either and we didn't eat at all. At one point it got cold and we went to the other room .. I started kissing her and telling her that I am serious with her and I can't live without her I want to be together and many other things and I talked about how I never stopped loving her even though we weren't together she was always very nice and I don't want that to end. Then we hugged again and she started telling me that she was with 2 3 boys but they didn't turn out to be serious and she knew that I always kept her super cool, nice and very and she lacked nice. I would do anything for her. Then I told her that I wanted her to believe that there was no one else for me and that she was the woman for me. We hugged and kissed, she told me that she would blow me away and that everything would be fine ... It was such a beautiful moment that I had dreamed of her all my life. She was in bed I started caressing her and I thought something would happen this time when my hands got down I started coloring her I was very gentle and suddenly when I started to unbutton her she told me. no no she pulled my hand away. I said nothing and hugged her. We talked good things again about what it was like once and so on until we fell asleep at 3 in the morning. I woke up in 30 minutes. and I kissed her sweetly .. on the forehead, lips on her neck everywhere she rested and so it was 6 in the morning. She woke up and asked me what time I said and 6. And she told me you have to take me and we fell asleep sweetly again. I didn't want to leave, it was very nice, even though nothing intimate happened. By 10 before noon we were in a good mood. I brushed my teeth, opened a brush for her, she washed the bed and we went to drive her in them. They had called theirs, but she called them and said that everything was fine and she was getting better now. I had already taken her and told her that I would call her to go out with a friend and his girlfriend. She said ok open the car door and told me Won't you fuck me? I said and I'll fuck you :) and I kissed her sweetly. I was happiest then. In the evening I called her to go out but she refused and we did not understand anything more. Since then, I haven't stopped writing to her and thinking about her, how much i love her i miss her. 2 days ago I saw her, called and saw her and went to them. We saw each other in 15 minutes. but there were no kisses .. I don't know what to do. I love her so much. I want things to work out and be together. She hasn't called me once since March 1 until now, and I always write to her first. How are you what do you do and how did your day go like that! I'm afraid to tell her to see why I don't know I feel weird, I think she doesn't want to be with me. And she told me that at times she wanted to be with me. I'm afraid to tell her to see why I don't know I feel weird, I think she doesn't want to be with me. And she told me that at times she wanted to be with me. I'm afraid to tell her to see why I don't know I feel weird, I think she doesn't want to be with me. And she told me that at times she wanted to be with me.