Good day or good evening. So to begin with, some time ago I wrote on this site about a girl I was in love with, but she did not pay any attention to me. Anyway, when I stopped "doing" and wasting time with a person for whom emotions were "movies", I started paying attention to myself, I was uniquely happy, I did what I wanted I had a lot of free time for me, and we went out more with friends. Here comes the moment to say that I met several new people, along with a friend. One of the girls I met liked this friend of mine, I will not give real names, for example Georgi. So I don't know if she was in love with him, but I know for sure that she liked him a lot. He didn't know what to do, he liked her, but at the same time he didn't want to be with her because, according to my observations, he was afraid, that he would have fallen again, I apologize for the expression "prostitute." I told him that he would not regret going with her, because I had known her for two weeks and from what I saw she was a really unique girl, super decent and very good. They still weren't sure what to do, but still one night we had gotten together and he picked her up and took her. And as far as I understand they have taken. The next morning they broke up because of him because he was afraid. It wasn't long before she got mad at him for what he had done, and I just told him to apologize, because at least he deserved it. We continued dating this girl in a company for a month until I found out from my friends that she liked me. I felt very weird because it hadn't happened in a long time that someone liked me, so for a few days I didn't know how and what to do. Because I hadn't had a girlfriend until now. At first I said to myself that I didn't know what to do, because no matter how many times I liked someone, they cut me every time. She showed that she liked me. Until one day we were in a car, we were sitting in the back seat, and while a friend was driving the car, she said she was back. And he lay on my lap. It was very sweet, I felt very good, and I wanted to do something, but at the same time I didn't know what. And I just grabbed her hand, she grabbed it, squeezed it lightly, and pulled it towards me. It may sound childish, but as a person with no experience in this field, I felt very warm and pleasant. After maybe a week we left, I decided to do something, at the beginning I said to myself, well, why not try, what I will lose, and what will happen if I try. Keep in mind that I was 17 (already 18) and she was 15. And we went, everything went very well, uniquely, I would even say like in fairy tales, we didn't fight, everyone went for honey and butter. We left in December 2018, and in a moment I will explain why I mention it.
Until 2 weeks ago, everything was 6. But suddenly he started to behave a little colder, more withdrawn, I thought I had done something. Because when I bent down to kiss her, she pulled away, usually before he did to annoy me, but then she gave me a kiss, but not now, she doesn't hug me, that's all, not to say at all. And I began to fear that my feelings for me had cooled down, why he was behaving so strangely. I was afraid of losing her, I was scared a hell of a lot. She began to notice that I was sadder, more anxious. And 3 days ago I said, that I'm really afraid of losing her, I want her in my life. And then I realized how strong she really is, she had experienced things much harder than me, she explained to me in two words how things are in a separation. I accepted it well, or so I thought, in the evening, because I had stayed to sleep in them, I went to bed with tears. I have never been ashamed to cry in front of a person I love, to show my emotions. The next day I sent her to the bus stop that was about to get on, and she didn't even say goodbye, then I got something like paranoia, what's going on with us, and so on. It was April 1st. I was at home until a friend said he was at my door to give him water because we were going out. I open the door and look at her, with all her beauty, with a charming smile she says "Hello", that's what made my day, then I realized how strong a smile is. They came home, and in time we had to go out because she had to go home. I loved her a hell of a lot, I was ready for anything and only for her to be happy, happy and cheerful. Until yesterday, April 2. She wrote me that we urgently needed to talk about something, and I was afraid that she would tell me that she wanted to separate anyway. I went to her to talk, and surprisingly I was not sad, I was hell. cheerful and happy even if we were not together. We talked as we talked and parted, but the strange thing is that I don't feel her as a friend, but as a sister. We went out with friends and we were happy, we acted like we were together, which confused me.
We went to them to watch a movie, and she lay down inside me, she had her hand on my chest and I grabbed her. And then I got even more confused about what kind of relationship we were in, I wasn't sure what was going on. The next morning I wrote what was going on, are we still together, she replied that we are not, things became clear to me. All in all, I just wanted to share what I went through, not that it's something very big and difficult, I'm just very emotional and as she says I'm probably more emotional than her. So the reason for our separation is that she came to more things that happened to her, with everything. I just want her to be happy, and if the separation would make her better, then it won't be so much for me, she didn't cheat on me either, and we both trusted each other, we trusted each other, we loved each other. Now instead of a boyfriend I have a little sister :). I'll just have to get used to the fact again that I won't be able to kiss, hug and tell her that I love her. I just couldn't imagine her with anyone else, and that was my biggest fear. All in all, if anyone has read this whole novel to me, I'd love to hear an opinion, if I've missed something I'll add it as a comment. Thank you for your attention!
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I read it and I am confused. I can only say that your feelings are very pure and sincere. I felt the same way with my first love. After our separation, I wanted the boy to be happy, even if he was not with me. I periodically needed to hear how it was, just to know, without asking for anything in return or hinting at collection. He remained my closest person for a very long time, although we no longer had any intimate moments with each other. We didn't see each other every day, we heard each other for a certain period of time. As we moved on, the feeling was uniquely strange. One part of me had the feeling that the whole situation was terribly wrong and not right. So we stopped communicating, this time forever. As soon as I found out about his new girlfriend, I was both jealous and happy for him. A complete mess of emotions, I have no words to describe it to you. Then I started liking a boy, I couldn't keep in touch with my ex after all. I can tell you that at the moment your relationship is still warm, you show understanding and accept things quite well, but it will not always be so. Prepare for some storms. The second you feel that you can no longer be friends with this girl, stop communicating with her. Love that does not change and remains after all events is dangerous for your future relationships. And try not to confuse your relationship, if they are friendly, let them be just that and there should be no intimacy between you. Separation does not prevent you from loving, it simply forbids you from kissing, but only changes the physical contacts and nothing of what your heart feels. Every separation is different. Be strong and enjoy what has happened to you, do not think about any probabilities. :) there was no way I could keep in touch with the ex though. I can tell you that at the moment your relationship is still warm, you show understanding and accept things quite well, but it will not always be so. Prepare for some storms. The second you feel that you can no longer be friends with this girl, stop communicating with her. Love that does not change and remains after all events is dangerous for your future relationships. And try not to confuse your relationship, if they are friendly, let them be just that and there should be no intimacy between you. Separation does not prevent you from loving, it simply forbids you from kissing, but only changes the physical contacts and nothing of what your heart feels. Every separation is different. Be strong and enjoy what has happened to you, do not think about any probabilities. :) there was no way I could keep in touch with the ex though. I can tell you that at the moment your relationship is still warm, you show understanding and accept things quite well, but it will not always be so. Prepare for some storms. The second you feel that you can no longer be friends with this girl, stop communicating with her. Love that does not change and remains after all events is dangerous for your future relationships. And try not to confuse your relationship, if they are friendly, let them be just that and there should be no intimacy between you. Separation does not prevent you from loving, it simply forbids you from kissing, but only changes the physical contacts and nothing of what your heart feels. Every separation is different. Be strong and enjoy what has happened to you, do not think about any probabilities. :) that at the moment your relationship is still warm, you show understanding and accept things quite well, but it will not always be so. Prepare for some storms. The second you feel that you can no longer be friends with this girl, stop communicating with her. Love that does not change and remains after all events is dangerous for your future relationships. And try not to confuse your relationship, if they are friendly, let them be just that and there should be no intimacy between you. Separation does not prevent you from loving, it simply forbids you from kissing, but only changes the physical contacts and nothing of what your heart feels. Every separation is different. Be strong and enjoy what has happened to you, do not think about any probabilities. :) that at the moment your relationship is still warm, you show understanding and accept things quite well, but it will not always be so. Prepare for some storms. The second you feel that you can no longer be friends with this girl, stop communicating with her. Love that does not change and remains after all events is dangerous for your future relationships. And try not to confuse your relationship, if they are friendly, let them be just that and there should be no intimacy between you. Separation does not prevent you from loving, it simply forbids you from kissing, but only changes the physical contacts and nothing of what your heart feels. Every separation is different. Be strong and enjoy what has happened to you, do not think about any probabilities. :) Prepare for some storms. The second you feel that you can no longer be friends with this girl, stop communicating with her. Love that does not change and remains after all events is dangerous for your future relationships. And try not to confuse your relationship, if they are friendly, let them be just that and there should be no intimacy between you. Separation does not prevent you from loving, it simply forbids you from kissing, but only changes the physical contacts and nothing of what your heart feels. Every separation is different. Be strong and enjoy what has happened to you, do not think about any probabilities. :) Prepare for some storms. The second you feel that you can no longer be friends with this girl, stop communicating with her. Love that does not change and remains after all events is dangerous for your future relationships. And try not to confuse your relationship, if they are friendly, let them be just that and there should be no intimacy between you. Separation does not prevent you from loving, it simply forbids you from kissing, but only changes the physical contacts and nothing of what your heart feels. Every separation is different. Be strong and enjoy what has happened to you, do not think about any probabilities. :) And try not to confuse your relationship, if they are friendly, let them be just that and there should be no intimacy between you. Separation does not prevent you from loving, it simply forbids you from kissing, but only changes the physical contacts and nothing of what your heart feels. Every separation is different. Be strong and enjoy what has happened to you, do not think about any probabilities. :) And try not to confuse your relationship, if they are friendly, let them be just that and there should be no intimacy between you. Separation does not prevent you from loving, it simply forbids you from kissing, but only changes the physical contacts and nothing of what your heart feels. Every separation is different. Be strong and enjoy what has happened to you, do not think about any probabilities. :)