I Am Terrified Of Intimacy ... Emotional And Sexual

The Story

I am 19 years old. I have a friend recently. We have been together for a month and if I continue like this I will lose it. My friend is polite, takes care of me, hardworking, smart, sex is okay, of course ... but I can't see him more than once a week (EVEN THAT IS A LOT). He wants us to see each other every day, to stay with them - and I don't want to. I can't imagine falling asleep next to him and ... not specifically with him at all, but in general - to fall asleep peacefully next to a man. When we are together for two days in a row, I don't feel well, the feeling is as if I'm suffocating, I get up, I want to get away from him. He is not my first boyfriend .. I did not have this problem with the first boy we had a relationship with .. now I don't know what is happening. I'm going crazy. From the side it looks like I'm pulling at him, I'm closed, he shares my freedom, he gives me time, and I ...

I behave inappropriately. When we both lie down and talk, for example, I get nervous, I want to go home sooner, I don't share anything with him, but I feel that he has something, I have so many thoughts and things that I want to share with him, but something it stops me. It's the same when we have sex - I'm still not completely calm and I don't relax. I would even say that I do not feel so much pleasure, but it is not because of him .. something emotional in me is wrong. I feel anxious and scared ... of being close to someone. I like my boyfriend. I do not want to separate, but if I continue like this, separation is inevitable. We talked about my behavior and he told me that I had to seriously change my behavior otherwise ... according to him, this way we have no future. Is this normal?

Did anyone else have the same fears? I don't share anything with him, but I feel that there is something, I have so many thoughts and things that I want to share with him, but something stops me. It's the same when we have sex - I'm still not completely calm and I don't relax. I would even say that I do not feel so much pleasure, but it is not because of him .. something emotional in me is wrong. I feel anxious and scared ... of being close to someone. I like my boyfriend. I do not want to separate, but if I continue like this, separation is inevitable. We talked about my behavior and he told me that I had to seriously change my behavior otherwise ... according to him, this way we have no future. Is this normal?

Did anyone else have the same fears? I don't share anything with him, but I feel that there is something, I have so many thoughts and things that I want to share with him, but something stops me. It's the same when we have sex - I'm still not completely calm and I don't relax. I would even say that I do not feel so much pleasure, but it is not because of him .. something emotional in me is wrong. I feel anxious and scared ... of being close to someone. I like my boyfriend. I do not want to separate, but if I continue like this, separation is inevitable. We talked about my behavior and he told me that I had to seriously change my behavior otherwise ... according to him, this way we have no future. Is this normal? Did anyone else have the same fears? It's the same when we have sex - I'm still not completely calm and I don't relax. I would even say that I do not feel so much pleasure, but it is not because of him .. something emotional in me is wrong.

I feel anxious and scared ... of being close to someone. I like my boyfriend. I do not want to separate, but if I continue like this, separation is inevitable. We talked about my behavior and he told me that I had to seriously change my behavior otherwise ... according to him, this way we have no future. Is this normal? Did anyone else have the same fears? It's the same when we have sex - I'm still not completely calm and I don't relax. I would even say that I do not feel so much pleasure, but it is not because of him .. something emotional in me is wrong. I feel anxious and scared ... of being close to someone. I like my boyfriend. I do not want to separate, but if I continue like this, separation is inevitable. We talked about my behavior and he told me that I had to seriously change my behavior otherwise ... according to him, this way we have no future. Is this normal?

Did anyone else have the same fears? We talked about my behavior and he told me that I had to seriously change my behavior otherwise ... according to him, this way we have no future. Is this normal? Did anyone else have the same fears? We talked about my behavior and he told me that I had to seriously change my behavior otherwise ... according to him, this way we have no future. Is this normal? Did anyone else have the same fears?

Last Updated
August 09, 2020
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