Hello, I am writing this topic to hear (read) a few opinions about my condition. I think I'm in a depression right now that I can't find a way out of. I may have suffered from OCD because I cleaned a lot, or maybe because we had a dog. I have been to hospitals (psychiatric clinics) several times, my ECTs have been done. At the moment my therapy is 4 tablets of Anafranil I think of 25 mg, 5 mg of abilifay and 300 mg of depaquin chrono. What worries me: that I went to a psychiatric clinic called madness by the evil mouths, that my ECTs were done. I have to hide these two things from people all my life, even from close friends and from a future girlfriend. What worries me the most is that when I got sick I developed an incredibly strong sense of guilt expressed in the fear of causing death and I'm afraid that I did not react correctly when I saw a bare power cable, that I caused accidents, etc. I try to describe the problems relatively briefly so that someone can read what is written. I have been receiving treatment for more than 2 years now, but I still do not find meaning to live, I have no pleasures in life, I think I do not deserve to live because of what I have done, etc. To complicate the situation even more my memory is not especially good, and I'm only 26, but ECT, medication, and illness have told me the brain game I think. I am from Sofia. For the memory of yesterday I drink Akutil. Do you think there is a cure at all and what is it? Greetings! Be healthy! but I still do not find meaning to live, I have no pleasures in life, I think I do not deserve to live because of what I did, etc. To complicate the situation even more my memory is not very good, and I'm only 26, but ECT, medication, and illness told me the game of the brain, in my opinion. I am from Sofia. For the memory of yesterday I drink Akutil. Do you think there is a cure at all and what is it? Greetings! Be healthy! but I still do not find meaning to live, I have no pleasures in life, I think I do not deserve to live because of what I did, etc. To complicate the situation even more my memory is not very good, and I'm only 26, but ECT, medication, and illness told me the game of the brain, in my opinion. I am from Sofia. For the memory of yesterday I drink Akutil. Do you think there is a cure at all and what is it? Greetings! Be healthy!
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There is a cure, but not the drugs - do psychotherapy or even psychoanalysis, but the second lasts 1-2 years. See a psychologist, not a psychiatrist. Prepare money and patience. Psychotherapy will help you within 6 months and focus on acute problems today, here and now. Psychoanalysis will dig into childhood and deeper into the subconscious, but it lasts a very long time. Stop the pills, they don't help as you can see. I don't see anything shameful in your problems, I think we all have or have had similar ones at some point in our lives, but you dig a lot deeper instead of getting treated. You won't have a girlfriend in this state anyway, and the one you don't like later because of such problems in the past must be a very elementary piece and you don't need it anyway. If your relatives do not support you, but separate from them and live independently. They may also be the cause of your disorder. Most of all, learn to love yourself. People are not interested in you and whoever condemns you because you were sick alone is quite a simple and flat person. Focus on your healing, find yourself, and then you will realize that your fears were unfounded. Consult a psychologist, maybe a psychiatrist, but who can do psychoanalysis / psychotherapy and not only prescribe nahaos medication.