I Am In A Complicated Situation.

Hello. I am in a dilemma and I am confused. For the record, I am 22 years old. At the end of last year, at a party, I met a girl. She is a best friend of one of my friends and it happened next to her. Even then we got quite close and then we wrote to each other for 2 months and it turned out that we have a lot of things in common, and similar traits in character. We always had fun talking together and it was super nice. The first problem is that she is from another city and follows in another. However, I invited her to my birthday, knowing that my intentions would be obvious if they weren't already, because I didn't hide them. I invited her out and she seemed to agree, but she was always busy afterwards. When it came to my birthday, it so happened that I realized that she was actually dating another boy for a year. As expected, I felt very sick. When I said what I had, she said I had confused her, and although she knew why I had invited her to come, she agreed again because she wanted to see me. Then we stopped contacting for a moment at my request, but after a month I somehow missed communicating with her and I started again. So in the summer, I doubted that the boy in question was already boyfriends, but I wasn't entirely sure. Yesterday, however, I saw our mutual friend, mentioned at the beginning, and I felt even worse after she confirmed it. Not to mention that my family and I are recovering from a recent family tragedy. I decided to stop social networking for a while because I feel suffocated. I told her that if she wanted to talk, she would call me, and she replied the same. He told me, "I'll wait for you to rest." He even said, that he may come to my city. I replied with "If you want". I didn't tell her that one of the reasons was her. The bottom line for all this for me is that sometimes I feel like there may be something more to me, but is it just because I want it to be so and I imagine? Or is it more complicated? I knew from the beginning that it would be difficult to come up with something, given the distance between us. But despite everything, I got into it again. I have many girls who are just my friends and nothing more, but she is different. I've never talked to a girl like she did. There is a dynamic between us that is different. Despite everything, I have feelings and if I knew for sure that there was little hope, I would do my best. But now, I'm super confused and I feel so many mixed emotions. No matter how hard I try to fight, I am persecuted. Thank you for your attention! Share your opinion!