I Am Dissatisfied-chloecamxoxo

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I know you will tear me apart from criticism, but I still want to share because there is no one else. I am a middle-aged woman and I have one problem - I am sexually dissatisfied. But don't think I'm not having sex with my husband. I do a lot of it, and with quality. Not only that, but we also have a strong emotional connection. I state emphatically that I love him, although I am convinced that you will accuse me otherwise, but I know that I love him. My problem is that monogamy is not for me. I need a variety of partners because of the diversity itself. I want to feel the excitement of the first meeting again. I want the famous butterflies to flutter again. This lack of new stimuli, new excitements and sexual adventures is killing me. I don't want it to be that way and I'm ashamed to admit it, but I have my desire anyway and I can't get rid of it for years, no matter how hard I try. I care a lot about my family and my husband in particular. I would never hurt him with infidelity, and I hate her myself. Even if I burst with sexual desire, I would rather sacrifice my own emotional health, as unbearable as it is, than risk my marriage or hurt it. But this dissatisfaction has already accumulated over the years to such an extent that I will explode. It roars at me, I constantly feel nervous, tense. I envy the swingers nobly - they don't lie to their partner, they allow themselves variety. But he would never agree. I would give anything in the world to stop experiencing such desires. I tried some techniques to pretend to provoke wet dreams, that at least in a dream to experience such pleasure, but nothing happened. I don't want you to criticize me, because I despise myself enough for it. I also don't want you to give me advice of the sort to find a lover, because in the world I will never do it, no matter what it costs me. Reading here, I am left with the impression that everyone either does not feel such desires at all, or if they do, they cheat with a clear conscience and do not comply with anyone. Am I the only one who feels that way Is there no way to eliminate this dissatisfaction, or at least to satisfy it, without cheating? I don't know, but I already feel like I can't take it anymore. Am I the only one who feels that way? Is there no way to eliminate this dissatisfaction, or at least to satisfy it, without cheating? I don't know, but I already feel like I can't take it anymore. Am I the only one who feels that way? Is there no way to eliminate this dissatisfaction, or at least to satisfy it, without cheating? I don't know, but I already feel like I can't take it anymore.

Last Updated
November 07, 2020
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