I Am Depressed

The Story

Hello! I am 15 and live in a small town (about 5,000 people). I've always wanted to be the best version of myself. I have many friends, but they are from other big cities and I can't see them. And from my city most people behave like peasants, or they are bad and I go out with 4-5 people only. Many people know me from the internet when I was 13, due to the circumstances I became famous on the internet, but I don't want to give a lot of information about my life, because people like me and if they find out I'm from such a small town they will stop. I'm just ashamed to know where I'm from. And here comes the problem that since I am a "family" people have to think that my life is good. I always try to show my life in the best light. And while at some point I'm happy, I suddenly think and realize how nasty my life really is. And what's the point of having fame, good financial status after living in such a small town. I have never had a boyfriend, I recently wrote to a boy, but he is from Sofia, I hope to see you one day. The problem is that every day my city depresses me more and more. It's just that I'm not for such a small town. I need to go out with friends, to have a boyfriend, to go somewhere, to develop. I want to live in Sofia or at least a bigger city. But my parents don't want me to be alone. And maybe I won't move from this city (which looks like a village) until I'm 18. But by then it's 3 years. I haven't come out of this depression in the last 1 year. I go to school, go home and stay at home. Our people have opportunities, they buy me expensive things, but they don't make me happy, I want to do something, to travel, not to stay in my city, but they work all the time and can't take me. Not in the wording, but I hope you understand why I'm depressed. Please publish my story, because I have had this depression for about a year, I am sad every day and I don't know what is happening to me, how to deal with it.

Last Updated
November 01, 2020
Author:
CuteStacy

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