I Am A Hostage To My Love

I am a 17 year old girl. My family and I moved to the United States 10 years ago. Everything was going well there, I study in an elite high school, I started a career as a model, I have friends, a hell of a beautiful boyfriend, I have no financial problems. I came to Bulgaria 3 months ago to do some work. One day, it had just warmed up after the snow and I went down in front of the block in the sun. There were children on the playground, a boy trying to learn some skate tricks. Until two or three years ago, I drove regularly and decided to teach the boy what I know. The whole time I was with the boy (about two hours) his sister was watching us. A few days later, she decided to meet me and told me that she was happy with how I took care of her brother. In fact, we were just playing, but she was already in love with me. He invited me for coffee and in a week or two we became friends. She is 16 years old and lives with her boyfriend, and her grandparents take care of her brother. At the beginning of last month we went to a party and got drunk. It was still holding us back when we decided to go home alone and kiss on the street. Then we went to our house and continued on. However, this is short because I got scared and locked myself in the bathroom. By the time I left, she was gone. Two days later we saw each other again and talked as if nothing had happened. However, I already had to leave for the United States and at our next meeting she explained to me in love and that she wanted to stay with her. I told her that I also loved her, but I could not stay in Bulgaria. However, she will not go with me because she is a minor, and her parents, who must allow her, are not even able to call her on the phone. In addition, it will have to support itself in some way, and here her friend supports her. So, I stayed here, I've been mumbling explanations to our people for a whole month, why I'm not going home. They are very tolerant and understanding (my boyfriend is black and they like him a lot), but I don't know how they will react to the fact that I want to leave my life in the United States because of a girl. Besides, I must have lost my boyfriend already, because all the girls take him down anyway. He lied to me on Skype that he was waiting for me, and he uploaded beach photos with a classmate. I'm in a timeless situation and I feel very confused. I began to doubt my own feelings, but not hers. It attracts me, but I still feel attracted to men. I don't know how to act in this situation, because we all lose, and over time we feel even more ridiculous. why don't I go home. They are very tolerant and understanding (my boyfriend is black and they like him a lot), but I don't know how they will react to the fact that I want to leave my life in the United States because of a girl. Besides, I must have lost my boyfriend already, because all the girls take him down anyway. He lied to me on Skype that he was waiting for me, and he uploaded beach photos with a classmate. I'm in a timeless situation and I feel very confused. I began to doubt my own feelings, but not hers. It attracts me, but I still feel attracted to men. I don't know how to act in this situation, because we all lose, and over time we feel even more ridiculous. why don't I go home. They are very tolerant and understanding (my boyfriend is black and they like him a lot), but I don't know how they will react to the fact that I want to leave my life in the United States because of a girl. Besides, I must have lost my boyfriend already, because all the girls take him down anyway. He lied to me on Skype that he was waiting for me, and he uploaded beach photos with a classmate. I'm in a timeless situation and I feel very confused. I began to doubt my own feelings, but not hers. It attracts me, but I still feel attracted to men. I don't know how to act in this situation, because we all lose, and over time we feel even more ridiculous. Besides, I must have lost my boyfriend already, because all the girls take him down anyway. He lied to me on Skype that he was waiting for me, and he uploaded beach photos with a classmate. I'm in a timeless situation and I feel very confused. I began to doubt my own feelings, but not hers. It attracts me, but I still feel attracted to men. I don't know how to act in this situation, because we all lose, and over time we feel even more ridiculous. Besides, I must have lost my boyfriend already, because all the girls take him down anyway. He lied to me on Skype that he was waiting for me, and he uploaded beach photos with a classmate. I'm in a timeless situation and I feel very confused. I began to doubt my own feelings, but not hers. It attracts me, but I still feel attracted to men. I don't know how to act in this situation, because we all lose, and over time we feel even more ridiculous.