Hello. I'll start with the fact that I'm 18 years old. In 9th grade, I tried amphetamine for the first time, I wanted to see what it was, but I never imagined that from one test it was possible to get to where I am at the moment. In the beginning, everything was ok, I rarely took it, I didn't care, I did it to relax from time to time. Until at one point I realized that I was starting to do it more and more often.
Eventually, things got pretty bad, I took it every day for a few months. Then some things happened in the life that made me stop for a while. In the beginning, it was hellishly difficult for me, I had no desire for absolutely anything, I became aggressive, much more violent than before and I started to think in a completely different way, I changed a lot.
Gradually, over time, I felt that I was starting to feel normal again, but suddenly something happened, I decided to take once, then another, and so gradually, as if without realizing it, I crossed the boundaries again and took it very often, I just couldn't I hold back. I felt terrible, I was scared, most of all I wanted to stop, but I just didn't know how it was hellishly difficult. I tried many times and they all failed, I lasted 1.2 or at most 3 weeks and I started again.
I've been like this for a long time and I'm tired of repeating the same thing, I want to stop forever because it ruins my whole life and psyche. I'm not the same as I used to be, I have problems in my relationships with family, friends, and people in general. Please give me some advice on how to stop more easily, because I just don't know what to do anymore, I tried everything, I'm afraid that I will give up and I will never recover and everything will be as before.
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