How To Get Rid Of This Feeling

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Hello, I know that many of you will condemn me, but please think before you judge what you would do in such a situation. I am a 34-year-old married woman of 8 years, with two wonderful daughters and an even more wonderful man. The problem is that some time ago I met again a man with whom I had sexual intercourse more than 10 years ago. At that time, our relationship could not be called a relationship in its purest form. About a year ago we met by chance, he called me, I don't remember on what occasion, I think he was on business. We agreed to see each other, to talk, we had not seen each other for years. We talked about everything around us, each of us had something to tell ... We became closer than before, we became friends, he shared everything around him, and there is a lot to share around him, an impossible love that he can't there is, one connection ended ... it is quite complicated with him. The problem is that along with our very good friendship between us, there is also a very strong sexual attraction, which, believe me, I tried in every way to take a shower, alas, it doesn't work. After many months of internal struggle, at one point we indulged in this feeling ... Then, of course, I felt great guilt towards my husband, you just can't imagine how guilty I felt, so he didn't deserve it at all because he's great. man ... We haven't had sex for almost 3 months now, only friendly, but the attraction between us hasn't diminished at all. We see each other, we talk, we are friends, but I have the feeling that this is a bomb that will sooner or later explode again ... I don't want to lose him as a friend, but it's hard for me to be just his friend. Things are the same with him as with me. Sometimes I think that if I indulge in this, sooner or later it will run out and end, but how can I cause something like this to my husband as well as to myself. To hide, to lie, to feel guilty about my actions. I personally no longer know what to do!

Last Updated
July 30, 2020
Author:
tommyleejonesuk

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