I don't know where to start, but I will try to explain. 3-4 years ago I felt sick, since then I felt like a different person, I closed myself off, I thought there was something in my head, there were all sorts of terrible thoughts. I was full of fear. I closed for a long time. I started going out half a year ago, but I was still scared, my stomach was shrinking, my head was twisting, and it was as if I was going to fall. Example, as I look at myself and something happens to me if you will understand me, I don't know, I was shaking all over and it was as if I wasn't here, I wasn't real, I heard, I saw, but I looked from the sides, I felt horror and panic. I don't know what to do and the blood pressure after what happened to me was 170 to 110. I am 15 years old. Please explain to me how to proceed. They did a cardiogram, EEG, thyroid, everything is correct, but alas. And I'm so unhappy with these thoughts, I'm constantly crying, I laugh out loud, I just think about the meaning of life, why I live and how it will be for my loved ones without me. I'm in terrible shape. I also saw a symptom of a disease and I prescribed it. I'm watching something and I think it's going to happen to me. These horrifying thoughts and my physical symptoms scare me a lot, like I'm going crazy. I will be really grateful to you. I ask the moderators to publish my story, more precisely my described problem. Thank you again.!
1 Sherry_Gazerr answered
I think what you're describing is called paranoia. I do not know how to help you, but seek professional help as soon as possible.