How To Continue My Life?

The Story

Hello! I have been engaged for 3 years. My friend is a really good person, he loves me and imagines his life going on with me to the end. He had to move to another city for about a year. We don't live together, but we had the attitude to join him after another necessary year. He comes on the weekends, after all, here I am, here is his family. Since we haven't been able to see each other every day, our relationship has become more complicated. Initially, we heard each other often on the phone and chatted a lot, we missed each other. Noo, when he got used to life there, started looking for me much less often. Whenever he is with someone, he hangs up the phone, and after an hour (for example an hour) he tells me what he did and who he was with. Then he apologizes for bothering me because he didn't do anything. In short, when he is there, I feel like his burden. He has been more active on Facebook for some time, but not for me. He liked pages of naked women, he liked pictures of other girls, and he told me he did it "because of the likes." We had an argument about it and apparently no longer does. The problem is that if I look for it for a long time without getting an answer (which is very common), I start to worry about it and get angry at the same time. I caught him lying to me next to his friends in the 'new city'. It wasn't very serious, but then why is he hiding / lying !! After a misunderstanding, instead of solving the problem, he is silent to me, as if everything is because of me. Our problems affect me really badly mentally. I don't know how much I love him anymore or only attachment remains. :( I've been dating an aver for a while, purely friendly (supposedly ..). I still have a very good boy friend and I dare say that friendship between a man and a woman is possible. Alas, it didn't just turn out to be from those friendships. We have a great time together: we laugh, we talk ... but that's how we started to become attached to each other. He hadn't touched me with his finger until he tried to kiss me. The worst part was that I returned the kiss. He always knew I had a boyfriend. I know it, but it just happened. I'm not one of those people who falls in love with casual people. What's happening to me? !! I don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt my boyfriend because, despite the neglect, I know he loves me. Would you say I leave my boyfriend if I don't love him? !! Would you say that what happened with the kiss is something momentary and I do not appreciate what I have? !! The last attempt to break up with my friend (no matter the reason) 'almost killed him', if you understand me .. The truth is that I want him to be happy too. I'm exhausted and I'm very sad. Please advice, if not, skip it. I do not want evaluations for myself.

Last Updated
November 06, 2020
Author:
jaiwaetford

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