How To Change?-andyxbig

The Story

Hi, I'm a 19 year old girl .. I decided to seek advice here about a very big problem for me ... It's terribly stupid, but I really need help .. My problem is that I absolutely always judge people by their appearance without turning around attention to character. I don't think I'm beautiful and I don't have self-confidence, but I always go out with guys who are "BEAUTIFUL". I've already suffered several times because I chose such guys and now I find myself in a very complicated situation. I can say with a clear conscience that he looked like a magazine model, my friends told me that he was very handsome and we understood each other a lot, but we broke up because he hurt me a lot. I spent all summer alone, literally no boy paid attention to me and I was depressed, I drank, smoked and didn't go out much in our country, but in the end I met a guy who was nice to me and I went out with him without knowing what he looked like because he didn't have any pictures in his profile and so on .. we went out a few times (I don't know if out of pity or just because I was depressed, that no one wants me) but then I told him that I no longer wanted to see each other, only because he was overweight and did not look like my ex. I was very sorry that I hurt him like that and now you probably think of me as a monster, but I can't change and I hate myself .. After him I started dating another guy, who is also not nice and handsome, but I thought that I will be forced to change when I am with him .. And so we have been together for 1 month and instead of changing every day I cry and look at photos with my exes or see them live and I feel terrible that he is not like them ..

Last Updated
September 13, 2020
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andyxbig

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