I had a problem communicating and succeeding with the opposite sex as a child. I was never walking and it was very hard for me that they didn't like me. I envied a close friend, who was doing very well, it made me very complex. Maybe this motivated me to rise from the small town from which I am to a position with a salary of 5,000, I worked and studied very hard, most people worked until 5 pm, I worked until 9 pm, fortunately I did not go unnoticed. However, the problem with women was not solved. A few months ago I registered on dating sites, went out with a girl in expensive clothes, a beautiful car and high self-esteem helped me and we started having sex. However, I had no feelings, I simulated them. My idea was to finally realize my dream of being a playboy, to spin a few women. I even started going out on dates with others. But... it bothered me, I started to sleep badly, I felt that I could not betray a girl who gives her best and use her for sex, with the clear awareness that I would never want to have a serious relationship with her. I called my playboy friend ... I realized that this is the price he pays - he is never himself, he constantly lies to them, spins them, then they chase him, cry, and he plays theater and breaks up with them. I asked him ... well ... don't you feel guilty, and he said he felt he was just playing roles, that he wasn't happy, that a lot of people hated him. I saw ... that I shouldn't envy him. Because he invests all his energy and pays a very high price for what I am not willing to pay. I saw that the thing they took away from me as a child, to be walking and being liked by women and being a playboy - is not for me, I can't pay the price. And now I'm super happier, I was honest with the girl, we broke up, now I'm still in shock, but I already know that half my life has been spent chasing something stupid.
Fortunately, I'm 30, I'm young, successful and I'm thinking of finding a beautiful girl to commit to and have a family one day. That way I will be myself, I will not hurt other people and I will be happy. I am writing this, for all those who think that they are missing something or envy, to see like me ... when we envy someone, we must realize whether we are ready to pay the price to get our dream. Everyone pays in one way or another. I'm fine, I hope everyone has a chance to see and solve their problems, as I solved my successful and I'm thinking of finding a beautiful girl to commit to and have a family one day. That way I will be myself, I will not hurt other people and I will be happy. I am writing this, for all those who think that they are missing something or envy, to see like me ... when we envy someone, we must realize whether we are ready to pay the price to get our dream. Everyone pays in one way or another. I'm fine, I hope everyone has a chance to see and solve their problems, as I solved my successful and I'm thinking of finding a beautiful girl to commit to and have a family one day. That way I will be myself, I will not hurt other people and I will be happy. I am writing this, for all those who think that they are missing something or envy, to see like me ... when we envy someone, we must realize whether we are ready to pay the price to get our dream. Everyone pays in one way or another. I'm fine, I hope everyone has a chance to see and solve their problems, as I solved my Everyone pays in one way or another. I'm fine, I hope everyone has a chance to see and solve their problems, as I solved my Everyone pays in one way or another. I'm fine, I hope everyone has a chance to see and solve their problems, as I solved my
1 marty_vole answered
Good luck, Author, but in my opinion the problem was not in the wrong friend and in your goals, but you have a problem that may be rooted in early childhood (on a subconscious basis). If you have money, why not invest in self-knowledge instead of matter - in psychoanalysis. This way you will understand EXACTLY where your problem with women is, that is, more or less with yourself. It will help you one day to be a better father and husband. I also have the financial means, but unfortunately we live a bit of a nomadic life and don't stay in one place for long so I can start psychoanalysis (it may take 2-3 years), but we plan to return to Europe permanently soon. and let's stop and then I'll start psychoanalysis. Well, an expensive pleasure, but worth it.