Hello! I have a great boy next to me, with whom we love and support in every way. Since we both study in a big city and are in a dormitory, it can be said that we live together and we are almost inseparable, which is very attached to each other. The problem is that for the summer we both returned to our hometowns to see our family and friends, as this did not happen very often during school hours, and he had to help his grandparents fix up the house. Since we're separated, we write and talk at least once or twice a day, we even play online games when he's free, but ... I miss him a hell of a lot. It is most difficult in the evening, when there is no one to hug you, when you feel his absence next to you, when there is no one to touch, no one to talk to ... It is not the same on the phone. During the day, it's hard for me to focus on doing anything, since I think about him all the time, I literally feel like a dizzy 15 year old. I took an online programming course to have something to do and to be distracted by something, BUT even that doesn't help - I can't concentrate, it hurts and it eats at me that we're not together. I don't even know if I'll be able to finish it, because I'm a hell of a distraction - it's the first time something like this has happened to me. Books also help during the day, I manage to focus on the story of the characters and the worlds they serve me, but unfortunately this does not last long. I tried to find an internship in the specialty, but since I am a freshman everywhere I am told that it is too early for me. I applied elsewhere for positions such as receptionist, cashier, consultant BUT and I was not very lucky there - they always chose people with more experience than me, such as which would remain in the workplace not only for the summer season. I tried the sea, but there the hotels that offered a room to stay in, just did not call me, and even if they were, what would I do without people close to me? At the moment I am in a state where I cannot be alone, AGAIN for the first time in my life. I just can't know myself! I miss him, and the activities I find at home fail to fill his absence at all. My question is, how do you deal with the lack of your loved ones? How do you go abroad and not see them for months, how do you sleep at night? I am definitely not the only one in this situation, so I turn to you for advice. In August I will visit him for about a week, but until then there is a whole month ... And now another question arises in my head - what if its absence and pain at one point break me and become numb? Is it possible to unlock some protective reaction in me and lose it because of it? F, 20y.
1 angelic_ammy answered
As I read, I want to 'slap' you a nice slap. Let a person feel sorry for you, that you have a person next to you, with whom you love, but for 2 months you are not together every day ... wow, tragedy. What to say people who have broken up with their partners and really have no chance to do anything. At least you can call him, but let's drool and run away from our obligations, because you see, you miss being very productive.