Hello. I'm a little ashamed to post this topic, but I decided to seek help through this site anyway. I'm a girl, a freshman. As you can see from the title of the topic, I want to stop or at least limit to a minimum the viewing of pornographic content. I feel like I spend more time on sites with such "adult movies" than my male counterparts. I feel lewd because of the content I watch - it's never a man or a woman (that is, an ordinary "couple" having sex), it's always something special - two women and a man, two men and a woman, an orgy, a tied woman, and so on. n. In real life, I would hardly try such a thing - I believe in monogamy, I am committed and I would not want to have sex with anyone other than my friend. As a matter of fact, we don't have sex with him regularly - he's my first (and I really hope he's the last, we've been together for a few years), in the beginning everything was great, I even felt like a nymphomaniac - I wanted to do it twice a day, every day I did at least once French love, etc. Unfortunately, I had a problem with the retention of cystitis, then I developed a sore on the mighty neck and kept it dry for a while - sex was not recommended, and it was painful at such a time. I'm healed now, but he has no particular desire - I'm not angry with him, of course, he showed such great understanding for me. But he considers me perverted, depraved, etc., because sometimes I make sexual comments about him in front of his friends. Instead of feeling wanted, he was angry with me, so I stopped. Lately, there is no, no desire to even touch me. That's why I feel repulsive, ugly, etc ... and I comfort myself with porn, as pathetic as it sounds. I'm in a session, but instead of studying for exams, I watch things like that ... Then I feel even more useless and unwanted. I do not know what to do. I just want to be normal, without lewd thoughts - to stop watching porn, to stop thinking so much about sex ...
1 faroa_55 answered
First of all, I think it's stupid to make sexual allusions to your friends, you have nothing to prove to them! Make them in front of him. You sit down and talk seriously - share your thoughts and feelings, what you want in bed and ask him where the problem is. Lack of communication and openness kills a relationship. Jen