How Do I Meet Him?

The Story

Hi... I'm a 15-year-old girl... I was very wondering if I should write here, frankly, I never thought I'd have to. I would very much like the story to be published and thank you in advance for that. I apologize if it's too long. So, I'm in love with a boy I don't know... I know more accurately, but not personally. Everything he introduced about 2-3 months ago, when we tied up something like a conversation in a cabinet, then he looked at me and I smiled. After a few seconds, I got uncomfortable, and I shifted my gaze, as did he. Since then, I've started to see me at school more and more often, and once I even think we were waiting together at the bus stop and he told me that my backpack was unbuttoned, but I'm not sure. I... that's how I fell in love. Thanks to my friends, I found his social media and sent him invitations, but he ignores them... He generally does not use much social. networks, live is well behaved, but it seems pompous... we had a holiday at school a while ago, and in the crowd he pushed a friend of mine without apologizing to her afterwards... but at the same time he was constantly turning to look at me, perhaps because I did not take my eyes off him. Every recess I go down to their room, I constantly hang around him and the people he moves with. I feel like it's already felt, because every time we meet around the school, we look at each other like we know each other, and I'm being super inadequate around him. In the words of a friend of mine, he looked at me while I wasn't watching. The other day they were handing out at school, he gave me and smiled at me. I know it doesn't mean anything, but it matters to me. Every time I see him, I lose my mind, I go crazy... I want to know each other so much, even if I don't hold on to it as much as he knows my name, pay a little attention to me, smile at me one more time, talk to me. What I wouldn't give to repeat that in that office. I know he walks a lot, but they're things I don't really care about, and I don't want to go. We have 1-2 common acquaintances as far as I've been interviewed, but I'm already uncomfortable asking them for things like that, because more than I know about it, I've learned from them. Ideas? Maybe if I pushed myself into it and dropped something, oh, I don't know... how is it possible to love a person I don't know? I want to know a little bit about him and his character, as far as I'm told he was a decent guy, but sometimes annoying, is what that means... I want to see if it's worth wasting my time and emotions for him. It's absurd to go to him and talk to him, no matter how much I want him to, he's bigger than me, and I'm afraid he's going to make fun of me, and the people around him... which is going to hurt me so much. Besides, I don't want him to think I'm obsessed with him, and I'm following him. Please give me some advice. What if I write to him on Facebook? A friend of mine wrote to him because I wanted to see how he was going to treat him, and he was being super rude... At times I feel like I'm ready for anything, but then I think about how it's going to push me away and it's going to hurt me... I'm not very sociable myself, I hardly like someone, and I'm not very much on You with boyfriends, and obviously, to like him I've seen something in him that others don't have. They gave me the advice to wear something that would set me apart from so that he could notice me... What? In the meantime, things are escalating, I'm falling more and more in love, and I feel like we need to meet, but how... I'm afraid if he feels like I like him, he'il start running away from me. I'm so grateful that you read everything so far, now somehow I'm relieved. I'll be even more so if you give me some advice.

Last Updated
May 31, 2020
Author:
acc207

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