How Do I Change Things?

The Story

I know that there are many stories similar to mine, but at the moment it is very hard for me and I feel really bad, I just need to share ... The reason is that I am already 22, and so far I have not had a person next to me . Every day I wonder what is wrong with me, that I am still alone and what to do to change the situation .. I am very confused, maybe my post will be like that, for which I apologize! At first glance, everything is fine, I try to be positive, to smile and be among friends, but for some time I am very closed in on myself and I just prefer to go home and cry to relieve myself. .. I share with my relatives and friends about the problem, and they always tell me that there is time for everything, to stop waiting and it will happen. But I've stopped waiting for anything a long time ago ... Somehow I came to terms with the fact that there was no one for me, although at this age. And the worst thing is not that I don't like myself, but that I don't feel anything for people who want to be with me. At such moments, I am very angry with myself for letting go of decent boys, but I really can't be with someone by force! I tried with a man, we went out, he behaves wonderfully and in position, but I feel nothing more than friendly feelings. I don't want to lie to him or to myself. In that case, I wonder if it's my fault I just want to be with someone and be mutual (but obviously not that simple). I have the feeling that this loneliness will continue for a long time and I am very afraid of it .. Not to mention all the things I have missed so far ... I just want to have a chance to love and be loved! So many thoughts are spinning in my head that it will explode, so I stop here ... and I will be happy if you give me advice!

Last Updated
October 27, 2020
Author:
ohseven2

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