How Can I Stand It A Little Longer?

Hello! I've been following this site for 7 years, I never imagined that I would write a story here, but here it is ... I'm a stupid girl of 20 years. Three years ago I fell in love with a boy, two years younger, things were perfect until a few months later he went abroad ... We had a relationship for 2 years, we broke up for a month and during that time I was with another boy. Two years have passed since then. Maybe I was too in love then and I didn't pay attention to my friend's behavior, which was obsessive, manipulative and disgusting from the very beginning. Things came together so I came abroad and I'm currently studying. He is enrolled in an educational institution, but he does not study, he rarely goes and works from time to time. this person looks in every way how to crush my self-confidence and when he sees that I feel good and find friends / socialize in some way, he threatens me with separation and that I will stay on the street. He prefers to stay locked in his room and when he is angry to come in and insult me ​​for no reason .. Sex is almost non-existent, it happens once a month, without my initiative, because for him I'm ugly, fat, nasty aunt (I go to fitness regularly, I keep up and really obviously only in his eyes I am like that ..) Believe me, I really do not want to give up my education, but I do not have much money to move in the coming weeks .... I will be in Bulgaria in the summer , too. He claims to love me, but every time I do something good for myself, I go out with my only girlfriend - she looks at how to ruin my mood. Some time ago, this girl and I wanted to go to a disco, I went only 3 times and I was curious, he met us on the street and started shouting and cursing at me, eventually came home and got drunk .. Yes, he is addicted to grass.

He can't do a day without her, he tried to stop her, but he only managed for 7 hours until after the first three he was terribly nervous and put everything on me. He gives about 70 only for grass, but when I drive him to another city, the return ticket, which costs 8, seems too expensive and "he doesn't want to give money for nonsense." He prefers his friends to me, he goes out with them every day and they stay for many hours, getting drunk, sometimes stealing, fighting with gypsies ... and all this presents him as something pretty cool. When I make him go out he doesn't want to, sometimes I wait for him all day, but when they call him to get drunk, he immediately leaves ... I'm tired of him, I'm tired of him treating me like a rag, I want to ask you how can I put up with him a little longer? I don't have enough money saved, I have a lot of luggage, and my college doesn't have dormitories and is also located in another city ... I'm looking for all kinds of roommates, but I didn't find anything ... I'm terribly grateful to everyone who read this story.

I really don't know if I want advice or just someone to kind of listen to me. I had to pour all this negative energy somewhere. but I found nothing ... I am terribly grateful to everyone who has read this story. I really don't know if I want advice or just someone to kind of listen to me. I had to pour all this negative energy somewhere. but I found nothing ... I am terribly grateful to everyone who has read this story. I really don't know if I want advice or just someone to kind of listen to me. I had to pour all this negative energy somewhere.