Hello! I am 18 and since I entered high school I have the feeling that my mental development has stalled. The summer before seventh grade, I met some people on the Internet. I found them to be very interesting and intelligent people, and I tried to look like them. I believe that this was the most wonderful and prosperous time of my life so far. I had started to think about more serious things, I was more tolerant, I was interested in ethical and political issues, I could defend my position and as a result I was happy with the person I was and I had self-confidence. When I entered high school, I moved to another city to study. Although my hometown was half an hour away, I was homesick and the first year I was not comfortable there at all. I was looking forward to going home to do the things that gave me pleasure. Not that there was anything wrong with the city, in which I lived - he was just a stranger to me. When I came home (in the city I am from) I stayed mostly in the room, as I had only 2 girlfriends from this city, and we studied with them in the same city and we were roommates, and I did not want to see them so often. I didn't go out because I was bored and I had fun the only way I know how the computer was. I watched videos on youtube all day - before that it helped me grow, I watched Ted talks, I learned English, I listened to a variety of music, I generally had a rich culture, but now I watched videos of people I followed, and they weren't many. educational, and they were just fun. So, over time, my desire to think about more serious issues stunted. I had more questions than answers - not that I couldn't find them if I wanted to, I just didn't know where to start and I didn't want to, I just wanted someone to introduce me. And so, for 2 years, I slowly and slowly stopped my brain from thinking and taught it to just take it blindly, without processing. I didn't have much interaction with people, I had to break my inaction. In 10th grade I met a boy. He wasn't as smart as he thought he was, but he still had some interesting ideas about the world and man. Friendship with him made me realize that I had stopped being different and joined everyone else. It saddened me a lot, but I showed a desire for knowledge again, but again I didn't know where to start, so I made sure to let things happen naturally, because I realized that I needed help, I would find it, someday. I'm in the end of 11th grade now and I'm still, I'm sorry, stupid. I felt my empathy increase and now I understand why people do the things they do, but in the last 2 months I realized that I don't do that well either. I have almost no interests anymore, and for those I have I do almost nothing. I'm stuck, and I don't want to be ignorant. I am writing to ask you how you came out of such a period. I will go to university soon, will this help? Thanks to everyone who read this long post. And for those who will try to help me, an additional "Thank you! “ which I have do almost nothing. I'm stuck, and I don't want to be ignorant. I am writing to ask you how you came out of such a period. I will go to university soon, will this help? Are there any interesting sites you visit to get information about the world that are not filtered by corporations like BTV? Thanks to everyone who has read this long post. And for those who will try to help me, an additional "Thank you! “ which I have do almost nothing. I'm stuck, and I don't want to be ignorant. I am writing to ask you how you came out of such a period. I will go to university soon, will this help? Are there any interesting sites you visit to get information about the world that are not filtered by corporations like BTV? Thanks to everyone who read this long post. And for those who will try to help me, an additional "Thank you! “ who will try to help me, an additional "Thank you! “ who will try to help me, an additional "Thank you! “
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Hello! I'm in exactly the same position as you ... at 18, at the end of 11th grade, completely demotivated. After seventh grade, I entered a nice language high school, but it's as if everything I've been learning since then has been ... forced. I feel crippled. Yes, that's the right word. And of course, no one is to blame. Most likely the problem is in me. Obviously I can't force myself ... but I have to, if I want to grow up to be an intelligent and successful person. "I have almost no interests anymore, and for those I have I do almost nothing. I'm stuck, and I don't want to remain ignorant." - Exactly the same position. I don't know how to get out of this hole. I have goals, I want to achieve different things ... But for example I go to school and as if from the day I enter there I feel like a person who is not good at anything, who is constantly wrong, but "SHOULD NOT". Funny isn't it? He is chasing some assessments ... based on insignificant things, such as whether he copied 12 analyzes of literature in order not to get 2ka. This is me ... And I'm not acting ... unfortunately. Whatever plan I make, I do not act on it. I don't want to see what happens next if I keep going. I know only one thing ... Children's curiosity and energy are the only ones that can take a person away. Thank you for the topic you wrote. I will wait for the comments. Thank you for the topic you wrote. I will wait for the comments. Thank you for the topic you wrote. I will wait for the comments.