How Can I Become More Confident Around Him?

The Story

You may be fed up with teenage girls in love, but I need advice. The boy I like is named Daniel. It all started at the beginning of high school. I found many friends. Only with most of the boys I didn't become friends, but it was still me. Just because I had a lot of friends in class doesn't mean I wasn't a loser. It's just that my class is different. They accepted me. Well sometimes they laugh behind my back and it hurts but I swallow it. I have something like social anxiety, but it will take me a while to relax around the girls, while for the boys I will not relax at all and I will be afraid, I will sweat and I will tremble. I have no choice and I have to go out with my friends' groups. Most of them are my classmate Daniel. I may feel awkward in front of the other boys, but I'm dying of shame in front of him. Whenever I'm in my friends' groups and talking, I'll be confused by fear and Daniel will correct me and tell me I'm stupid. This has been going on for 3 years now. I started to have feelings for him from the first week. He is very kind, good, but at the same time he is a rude k * rvar. He is serious in relationships because his exes are girlfriends. One of them is a virgin and she told me how he had no problem with that and complied with it. Sometimes I have the feeling that he is rude only to me because if I make a mistake in my expressions everyone will ignore him, but he will correct me and make hints to me that I am stupid. Well yes I am different from all my friends. They are somehow more open, and I am not. Once I was with the group at their place because he had to look after his sister (he was 7 then). I don't remember why he wanted us all to come, but it didn't matter. Daniel was so caring. Suddenly I started thinking if we have children too. I feel like I know Daniel better than everyone else because I don't pay as much attention to them even though I want to. I generally hate chat groups and want to leave them, but I only stay because of it. I hardly write there because I will only confuse something and he will make hints to me. I know a girl who has my character. She got into trouble because she was sending nude photos. She is no longer like that, but her photos are on the Internet. As she shared this, Daniel began to tell her "you deserve to suffer now and to be called blood" and others. He was so offended that he left the band and everyone wrote bad things about her. Well, she did something stupid, but she learned her lesson and changed. I used to hate her too, but then she changed drastically. We've been friends for a long time and at least she doesn't laugh behind my back like everyone else. Literally only I am a friend. He suffers insults from everyone every day and I can't do anything because I can't even defend myself. She has a boyfriend now. She is the girl that everyone in the group hates, but only he loves her and shouts that she is kind and good. One time he even said "she's like her (me) but smarter" and I was dumbfounded by comparing me to her. We have a story with her. She briefly betrayed me and because of her I was mocked for 3 years in the old school. Now she's acting like we don't know each other, but lately I've been postponing our appointments because I don't want to see her. And when I see them together, I feel sick. How to become more confident around him and stop being stupid. I want him to fall in love with me.

Last Updated
November 05, 2020
Author:
abogadopateador

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