How Can I Be Bolder?

   I understand how you feel. I'm not the most sociable myself either, but I used to be a real mouse. Up to 4th grade the whole class loved me and I was popular, but from 5th to 7th a girl turned everyone against me and they harassed me a lot / insults and fights /. I am very sensitive at first, but then I closed completely. Then in the 8th grade I found a good friend, and in the 9th I found more friends who were hooligans. I myself, when I want to learn a quality, usually gather with a person who has it and absorb from it. Honestly, my hooligan environment at school taught me a lot. In general, the class hated me because I can't stand simplicity and I don't get smeared, also my style is more eccentric, I like to talk, I'm interested in make-up and there were rumors that I was bloated or a whore. I'm from a small town, Honestly, I'm used to everyone looking at me, because my style is really quite different - I wear make-up every day, it's my hobby, I like shiny or colorful clothes, I also had colored hair. Well, it's normal for them to look at me. Since the 9th grade I travel here and there alone, our people didn't always know, because they wouldn't let me go, separately and I often walk around the city alone. I like to always have time for myself, although I have a lot of friends right now. Honestly, it helped me a lot that I learned to be self-sufficient and to take time for myself. Again, I'm not the most sociable, but I certainly don't have a social phobia. I admit that wherever I go, I usually attract negative attention without people talking to me yet. I don't like fakes, I don't like to pretend and inflate. I don't like anyone else to treat me like that. I have all kinds of interests - I love cinema, theater, travel, I played the guitar, I love concerts and music, I go with friends and to the chalgoteka, I have all kinds of friends. I'm just natural - whatever I do, I do. I don't like to judge and gossip. So the first thing to start with is to get to know yourself and get used to yourself. The second is to make even one friendship, but to be real. Surround yourself with people who pull you up and accept you. You know, once I succeeded, so can you! Success! The second is to make even one friendship, but to be real. Surround yourself with people who pull you up and accept you. You know, as soon as I succeeded, so can you! Success! The second is to make even one friendship, but to be real. Surround yourself with people who pull you up and accept you. You know, once I succeeded, so can you! Success!

   I will tell you a secret - no one is 100% brave or strong. These are some wonderful qualities, but they are against human nature, they are built independently by the person and you fight for them to the end, even when you have already won them. We are all afraid. And the first year in a new city is a huge challenge, to which everyone starts with excitement and anxiety. I will tell you that I was also very close as a student. It was difficult to communicate and I could not relax in front of more people. Everything changed when I decided to fulfill one of my dreams. I participated in an Erasmus project and had the opportunity to go practically abroad. I came to a whole new place and I was with people I didn't know until now. After the first week, going out in the center, I stopped caring about people. There were an awful lot of people there than I had ever seen in one place. Everyone was dressed differently, no one followed a specific fashion. Everyone was looking at themselves and their friends. Even if someone commented on me, I didn't know because I didn't speak the language well. Before I left, I expected that for 20 days I would be alone and not be able to relax, because the spaces will be bigger and the passers-by more. The opposite happened. One gets lost in the crowd, stops caring, and begins to find different ways to express oneself. The same thing can happen to you, you should not leave with a bad attitude. When I finished 12th grade I had a lot of worries. I didn't want to leave my hometown because I adore it. I missed my family and my friends were in other cities. I did not leave forever, nor do you leave forever. You're going to study, and then you are free to return to your hometown or go somewhere else. You have to last only 5 years, you will not feel how they will pass and you will go home more often to relax your soul. In a very extreme case, you can go into part-time study and return to your hometown. Everything will be fine, you will be predisposed to communicate and overcome your fears. In the first year, everyone is looking for friends, you just have to greet and smile more. I believe that you will succeed, because there are many students who dropped out, but there are also many graduates. Follow your dreams, I think this is a sufficient incentive to overcome all obstacles. you can go into part-time study and return to your hometown. Everything will be fine, you will be predisposed to communicate and overcome your fears. In the first year, everyone is looking for friends, you just have to greet and smile more. I believe that you will succeed, because there are many students who dropped out, but there are also many graduates. Follow your dreams, I think this is a sufficient incentive to overcome all obstacles. you can go into part-time study and return to your hometown. Everything will be fine, you will be predisposed to communicate and overcome your fears. In the first year, everyone is looking for friends, you just have to greet and smile more. I believe that you will succeed, because there are many students who dropped out, but there are also many graduates. Follow your dreams, I think this is a sufficient incentive to overcome all obstacles.

   Go to the other city, but only if you have a trusted friend who will also go. If you leave alone, as insecure as you are, gloomy days await you. And if you go to Sofia, the collision with reality will affect you even more.

   “Until you jump in the water you will never learn to swim!” Yes, with a character like yours it will be difficult for you, the news will scare you, you will be terrified to death, you will miss your family madly and you will travel every week for the first months to see them. Old and familiar things, friends, even things you don't pay much attention to at the moment will make you suffer because you are not at home. However, in time you will overcome your fear. You will meet new people in the course, you will see that they are like you and together you will give yourself courage. And they will be scared and they will talk to their parents on the phone every night for hours and wander around until they get used to the situation, so it's not scary! One learns! I was like you, but it was even scarier for me because I went to study abroad. I didn't know anyone, I didn't know the language either, my course was in English, but not in an English-speaking country, my family was a thousand miles away from me ... madness and panic! However, I survived! And not only did I survive, but after a few months I was so used to everything that it was worth it to me that my dormitory was my home. Don't give up on your dreams because of your stupid fears! If you do, you will regret it. And if you overcome your fear, you will achieve your dreams and one day you will be very proud of yourself. Just a little courage! You're not alone! We are thousands like you who have gone this way. you will achieve your dreams and one day you will be very proud of yourself. Just a little courage! You're not alone! We are thousands like you who have gone this way. you will achieve your dreams and one day you will be very proud of yourself. Just a little courage! You're not alone! We are thousands like you who have gone this way.