I will try to be short even though my story is quite long! I met a boy from the internet, we have been writing to each other for a year and a few months now, something like internet love has happened, we decided to see each other when I return to Bulgaria, live abroad, everything was fine except for our quarrels from my stupid jealousies. Everything was already planned, we waited, we wrote to each other constantly, I flew through the clouds even though I had never seen him live except in photos! I KNOW it's stupid! But I'm used to him, a year is not a small time, and I know it's not real, and it's all just writings but he's the only one I've ever really wanted in my whole life and he responded to my feelings, always so kind even when I'm rude .. He always made me smile only when I read something he wrote to me, I started to tremble when he wrote to me .... Well, everything was ready to go home last month, but they didn't let me go at the last minute, then I collapsed! And all my dreams to see him and the things we wrote to become real collapsed ... I was afraid to tell him, because it would be over, but I told him and he was next to me, calm me down, then I flew again in the clouds and I started dreaming about "us" again .. But a week ago he told me one "end" one "I'll be your friend, but it won't be like before, I need a real connection" Damn, I need that too , and I don't like to write to each other all the time, but that's all we have left .... So .. since he told me, I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't get out, I don't care , I think about him all the time, I am not calm, and I am constantly waiting for him to write to me and tell me something to calm me down ... I'm not ready for this end, not now, last night we wrote I greeted him with a song "last chance" he told me he should think, he wanted to be with me but he can't, the distance bothers us, I understand him but I don't understand myself , I know that all this is strange but I do not have the strength to give it up, I even broke up with my friend because of him, I can not and I want to calm down, please give some advice, I know that some will blame me but .. only I am I know how I feel, and what's wrong with me right now! I think I'm crazy, such a thing has never happened to me .. :( I even broke up with my friend because of him, I can't and I want to calm down, please give me some advice, I know that some will object to me but ... only I know how I feel, and what is wrong with me at the moment! I think I'm crazy, such a thing has never happened to me .. :( I even broke up with my friend because of him, I can't and I want to calm down, please give me some advice, I know that some will object to me but ... only I know how I feel, and what is wrong with me at the moment! I think I'm crazy, such a thing has never happened to me .. :(
1 elmayorclasico answered
Yep .. I have a similar situation at the moment. We love each other, we know about our feelings, but because of the distance we haven't started a relationship. It really is a problem. We ... are a little behind your situation, but I understand you. I myself did not believe in internet friendship, let alone love, but here it happened. There are people whose marriages started on the Internet. But after you say that yours didn't let you go, then you can't decide for yourself ... It's hard, terribly difficult. You need to know if it's possible to see each other. And have you ever thought that even if you see each other, you still won't be in the same city? Will you see each other and then what? Will you leave again? I can't tell you to forget and move on, because it's stupid advice that won't help ... You have to think about it, discuss it, decide together. Really, come to think of it, I don't know a solution, where everything is perfect ... sorry for that. I wish you luck ... and again I apologize for not helping much. I just thought it might be a good idea to know you're not alone.