Hello This is a story about loneliness. I'm 24 years old. I have lived without love for exactly that many years. I was raised by my parents, but parenting turned out to be a very strong word. I don't feel loved and they don't care what happens to me. The only thing that matters to them is not to cause them problems and not to hinder them from living their lives. When I was little I told myself that love would come. I believed that I too could be loved, if not by my parents, then at least by a boy. During high school, I always hoped something would happen. I'm not weird, ugly or uncommunicative, but for these 5 years I only had 1 short tease, which didn't even lead to a date. I said to myself, "Well, it could be different at university." Alas. For 4 years I have had exactly 4 so far to men - 1 kiss in a drunken state and 0 meetings. I am very proud. I do not ask or persecute anyone to be with me. I soon met a boy. We liked each other and went out on a date - the first date in my life. It went smoothly and it was fun. We finally kissed. I did not complain, I did not say that I was looking for a relationship, I did not comment that this was my first meeting. Everything seemed to be correct, but for 5-6 days he has not been looking for me at all. I don't want to be annoying and look for him. At the meeting, he mentioned spontaneously that we should go to another place together another time. I was left with the impression that there is chemistry and we will see each other again. He's busy with university and work, but he didn't write about chat at all. I'm wondering if he's waiting for time to pass, or he'll write with a plan of what to do on a second date, or he's just not interested. It's hard for me to accept the last option because it gave me a hell of a lot of signals, but I'm already desperate. I have the feeling that I will never succeed in love. I suffer when I watch couples. I want to love and be loved. Is it that much?
1 ltorresbeauty answered
He doesn't like you enough to chat with you, let alone go out on dates. This is the truth. Forget it. It's not worth it. And you can miss someone who really likes you.