Darling, find friends - it's important to have someone to share with, to go out. Somehow it's not good to hide everything in yourself. They can support you, reproach you, advise you, or at least there will be someone to share with, so that certain things do not bother you. Don't part with people, the girls around you may not be your type, but through online games, etc., you can find girlfriends, and you have to find them. It is important, it is good - nice, somehow things start a little, to bother you if there is anyone, to share them. Shame in these years is something normal, it can stay for a lifetime, but with the right people next to you, with experience you will start to relax. It all depends on you, but it's normal at this age, you haven't had boyfriends, experience yet - we've all been through this. I, from a shy girl, became hellishly talkative and loose, I know I can have faith in myself, self-confidence and no problems with the boys. Remembering years ago, when I liked someone, I sank to the ground in shame, I couldn't say my name, but look at me now. I want and I have them, you just need confidence, maturity and everything with his time. No matter how shy you are after a few relationships, you will be safer and less anxious, and if you have girlfriends everything will be 6. My girlfriend was the same until the age of 20, the man too, but I was a friend, poisoned I also gave advice and gathered them, because they didn't even look at each other out of shame, but from km. they seemed to like each other. They are already happily married, and I am more than proud because without my intervention and grumbling she would be more confident that he also has feelings - nothing would have happened. Just try to relax, talk about something like that, for a start you start conversations like a friend. Relax, it's not scary, it's normal to be ashamed - we've all really been that way, but you decide what to be and how to behave. The talkative ones always have more friends and not in vain, and the silent ones share themselves. When you are silent, no one knows what you think, you are ashamed, but how can others know that. Calm down and everything over time :)
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Go directly "I like you, do you want us to kiss in us (or in them), etc." If he reaches out to touch or undress you - do not pull because if he is shy (as you say) he will withdraw. He does not die from pushing with a boy - calm down! I also want to know what "I'm different" means.