Help Me Solve My Problems.

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Hello, everyone! I am a 22-year-old boy and I study law in Plovdiv. My problems are as follows: I only have a few real friends - boys and girls, but for different reasons we are often separated. I'm an outsider. I've been cramped since I was a child, in 6th, 7th and 8th grade a lot of people misbehaved with me, and since the end of 2007 I have the so-called OCD - Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder or Fear Neurosis - the same diagnosis that Detective Monk has. from the series of the same name. All this prevents me from communicating, as well as following certain advice. It is difficult for me to have a conversation. In fact, with some people, it's easier to have a conversation than with my best friends, but with most it's terribly difficult. I visited psychiatrists and psychologists, went to a breathing course with a psychotherapist, but it didn't have much effect. Now I go to another psychotherapist and I hope there will be a result soon. But the bad thing is that my disease is both a little common and difficult to treat. It is difficult to fit into a team. In high school I had only one friend, and in the class I have 3, 4. A lot of bad things have happened in recent years. My grandfather passed away 4 years ago, my best friend's mother became seriously ill two years ago, she underwent a complicated operation, and since then she has been taking care of her, and more than a year ago I lost my father. Worst of all, it was a ridiculous fishing accident - his favorite pastime. And that made me gasp even more. I also have a hard time communicating with girls. So far I have not been with a girl and I have not had an intimate girlfriend. Nobody is looking for me or shaving me for anything. Many times I had to be alone. I also have bad physique - I am physically weak, I went to the gym, but it didn't work out - I just don't have a tone and I feel bad mentally. As positive things in myself I can point out that I am intelligent and curious - I liked history the most, I also went to the National Olympics and I write competently. Despite my problems, I take the exams. I blog, translate historical articles and songs from various genres from German and English. But nowadays few people appreciate this because they see if you have a muscular body and a lot of money. I have the feeling that many people despise me, it happens that taxi drivers treat me badly or certain people remove me from friends on Facebook without behaving badly. Could you help me with any guidelines on how to change things? I realize that I have to do the basics on my own, but I need support, people to support and help each other in difficult times, to be, as they say, brothers or siblings of no blood, and more soul. Thanks in advance.

Last Updated
September 19, 2020
Author:
rubieryder

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