Hell Of A Stupid Act Of Mine!

I have a friend for several months. It is ideal. BEAUTIFUL, SMART, FUN. Everything is there :) And he called me to go out, but I already had an appointment. With a girl and her brother. I told him we were going to the pool with some friends (I don't know what he meant by friends). And I invited him too - he refused me. After the pool we sat at a restaurant. Me, my friend, her brother, but a few more boys came - acquaintances of her brother. We sat there, we talked. And my boyfriend came, looked at me and called me. I went, kissed him, and there was no reaction from him. I asked him if there was anything. And he was silent. I thought something bad had happened. He lost a relative, whatever went through my head. I lost my mind. He asked me, "Are these your friends Do you go to the pool with them?" I told him - not only with him (I pointed to my girlfriend's brother) and her (I tried to show him my girlfriend, but she had gone to the toilet - just at that moment). It became very dumb. It's like I've only dated one boy. And while I was explaining to him, he left. I ran after him, grabbed his shoulder, and he almost hit me. Keep moving forward as if I'm gone. I wanted to be jealous. I felt terrified. It all happened yesterday. We haven't talked, we haven't seen each other since. I don't know anymore. It's my fault I'm doing such nonsense. I'm so stupid .. that I do such nonsense. I'm so stupid .. that I do such nonsense. I'm so stupid ..