He Returns In Full Force.

The Story

Hello. For many years I struggled with depression, negativity and everything else. I managed to get out some time ago, maybe months, but here I am again falling into the hole. Last time I lost everything toxic in my life, including my ex-boyfriend (it was very painful), I started thinking positively and I recovered, I felt really happy. I don't know what's wrong with me, I don't have toxicity in my life, except for Facebook, which I can't lose because of the university. I was so inspired to go in, to study the major I chose, I was so happy and ... now nothing. Literally. I have the feeling that I will not pass even one exam. I don't have the strength to get up like I used to. I'm sad because I want to go back to my ex, but I know I shouldn't, because he's really a terrible person. I don't even know which topic to put it in, I'm vomiting with sadness, all I want is to go back to him, hug him and tell him that everything is fine. I don't know why I collapse like that, I have no reason. I try to keep things under control, but it doesn't work. I don't get hungry anymore, I don't eat, I have a hard time sleeping, I'm a full-time student, I go to work and it's hard to go to work. I don't want to grumble, really don't get me wrong, but I rarely tell anyone, whether parents or friends, it doesn't matter. I come from a good family, with a little above the average standard of living, but I rush to work because I don't want to be inactive and I don't want money from ours, otherwise inaction will overwhelm me and make it even worse. Tomorrow is Saturday, it's an absolutely free day for me, I don't have lectures or work, and I don't know what to do that day, I'll probably lie all day watching movies. I have friends, it's not like I don't have, I get along with my colleagues, every aspect of my life is fine ... is it something hormonal? I have polycystic ovaries and I drink Yasmin, maybe that matters. The psychologist doesn't help, really. Whether it's because it's October or it's winter, or ... I don't know I really need advice, I hate this depression, I don't want to be in this state. Thank you if you read

Last Updated
August 04, 2020
Author:
lovely_kofa

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