Hello! I am a 16 year old girl. In my short life so far, many things have happened that have hurt me and deeply offended me. My parents divorced when I was 10. My sister and I never got along and we haven't talked for maybe a year. I took everything very hard. Years ago I was very depressed and complex and that also affected me badly. At the age of 12, I caught my first "boyfriend". In the beginning, everything was child's play - holding hands, we hid from classmates, kisses on the cheek. And yet this children's game lasted 4 years. When I turned 14, sex came, because he is 3 years older than me. Half a year later, I met another boy who actually had a boyfriend. We met, we fucked from time to time. Without any feelings, just friends with privileges. In recent months, I began to fall in love with him and our rare meetings made me naughty and I felt humiliated and inferior. I ended my secret relationship with him, and a week later, my friend ended our 3-year relationship without even giving an explanation. I piled up more. In the first months after the separation, I seriously considered studying. I increased my success in school.
My mother was proud of me. I learned new things, I started reading in different fields. It was like a hobby that shed tears for my two lovers! On the one hand, I felt abandoned by my childhood love, and on the other hand, I felt inferior for my actions with the other boy. I told myself that I would not have such SECRET connections from now on! So while I was studying and reading, a vacation came. I don't know how I changed through it, but definitely in a negative time there was a huge change. Instead of using the accumulated weekends to gain new knowledge, I used them to go to bars, discos and what not, unsuitable places for a 16-year-old girl. I don't usually drink alcohol, but that night, I did. I drank two large vodkas and they were all terribly handsome. I pushed all night with different boys and men. Eventually, early in the morning, as I was leaving the door, I met a young man in a hurry to get married. He offered to take me and my girlfriend home. We agreed. He drove my girlfriend, then on the way home I stopped in an alley. I didn't know what he wanted and I hadn't expected such a development. Maybe alcohol affected me or I don't know, but I did it with it. I did it with a married man. He remained only between us. I can't share with my friends - I'm ashamed! I feel like a little whore, which is always fucked with bound boys and men. Since then, I can't forgive myself for this mistake.
I can't forget that night and the way he kissed me and the way he touched me. I have never been with such an experienced person. It was the greatest sex of my life, but my conscience still gnawed inside. It's been 2 months and my action doesn't go out of my mind! I know most of you will spit on me and reject me, but still thank you for taking the time to read my story! I don't know how much this will help me, but I'm glad I managed to tell my story to someone! but still my conscience gnaws inside. It's been 2 months and my action doesn't go out of my mind! I know most of you will spit on me and reject me, but still thank you for taking the time to read my story! I don't know how much this will help me, but I'm glad I managed to tell my story to someone! but still my conscience gnaws inside. It's been 2 months and my action doesn't go out of my mind! I know most of you will spit on me and reject me, but still thank you for taking the time to read my story! I don't know how much this will help me, but I'm glad I managed to tell my story to someone!
1 sexyshaymarie26 answered
Do what you think is right. This is your life! But don't waste it on this man, get him out of your head and go ahead!