He Ignores Me For No Apparent Reason

So, the story is quite complicated, I will try not to make it too long. When I was 20, I met a boy of 22. He was the first cousin of my sister's boyfriend, who is currently her husband. This man fell in love with me a lot, as much as it is possible to be very much in love at 22. It was a child's work, but we liked each other very much. The bad thing was that we had a very different social status and lived far away from each other. I was a student, he lived in a village and he was like a bad boy. But he treated me perfectly and very kindly, always with great respect. The problem was that we rarely saw each other, mostly at family gatherings. I wanted to have something more, but he either didn't want to or couldn't give me more - I don't know. He invited me to his home for a few days, introduced me to his parents. Generally, I have good memories of this boy. The bad thing was that he always promised things he couldn't or didn't want to do. He promised me many times that he would come to see me in the city where I studied so that we could spend time together, but he never did.

He kept saying it wasn't for me, that I wasn't for him. So after about 2-3 years of sporadic, but very emotional and sensual encounters, our relationship fell apart. I wanted to go to the next level, he did not fulfill any of the promises he willingly and quite sincerely and confidently gave me. And I just backed off and gave up hoping it would change. 20 years have passed since then. Many things happened to me. During this time we met with him several times at general meetings. The strange thing was that she had the thrill all this time. We looked at each other constantly and watched with our eyes, we kept looking and looking for ways to be alone, as he was looking for more physical contact, he was more proactive than the two of us in that regard. I don't know how to describe it to you when I'm with him, my head flies and a helium balloon settles in its place. I don't know what I'm doing, what I'm talking about, I even lose moments, such as how I got near him. He always wanted me and told me directly, but I, for various reasons, but mostly because I did not want to repeat the old agony called "relationship" with him, I managed to refuse him, although hard.

Also, during these 20 years he had a lot of contact with my sister and they always talked about me at every meeting. He always said he had a great time with me, but there was just no way we could be together. And he always claimed that my pictures, which I had left with him during the visit, are still sitting on the section in their bedroom. I didn't believe him, but when the woman he had been seriously involved with for years told my sister that she had seen my photos and it took her a long time to get him to remove them, I believed them. So until the day we met again after 6 years we had not met. We all stayed for a few days in their house in the village. The chemistry between us still existed, even I couldn't believe it, but it was a fact! He kissed me, said how much he wanted me, I couldn't be with him, I pushed him away again. I was there with my husband, I could not be with another man, if I knew that there is still such a strong attraction between us, I would not even agree to visit this house. But this man excites me in a way I hadn't been excited about in a long time. After we got home, two weeks passed and I got a call. It was almost entirely about explaining love, more about how much he wanted me and how he wanted to see me again.

I told him that I agreed to see him and that I wanted to see him too - well, that's right, I didn't hide how I felt. He said that he would never give up until I was with him, because we are already 40, 42, respectively, and we are mature enough to know what we want. The conversation ended with a promise that we would talk again next week to give me a new number to look for. Two months have passed since then, and this man seems to have sunk to the ground. I called to ask him what was going on, did not pick up, and did not return the call. I texted him, he didn't answer. There's nothing I can do anymore, and I don't think it's necessary.

My question to everyone who has read so far is, what could be the reason for this silence and total ignorance? I know that you can't get into the head of the person in question, but if someone has been in a similar situation or acted in a similar way, I would be very, very grateful to share. Thanks! ЕЖК