Hello! I will drive it briefly, although the story is long. My boyfriend and I have been together since the beginning of the year. We are from different cities, but we have known each other for many years because I have relatives in his city. We rarely saw each other, then we lived together for 3 months and everything was great, but he went abroad. After 4 months he returned, but to his city. I'm still in mine because I'm working right now and I'm waiting to make my money for the semester and the bills for January and I'm leaving. We plan to go to him soon. I had a birthday 2 weeks ago. For the holiday I went to see him because my mother is here at home and he doesn't want him to come, and to save our nerves I went. We met for the first time in 4 months. The holiday did not pass much, because I arrived in the evening and I was tired because I had not rested for 16 days. He asks me what I want to do - whether to be home or go out to eat. I chose the 1st one because I was very tired. We ate at home, talked and went to bed even early before 00:00. Last night my friend was at a banquet with his former colleagues. There was a woman who was his friend and colleague, to whom he had a lot of sympathy, but she was married. There was a little mess at the beginning of our relationship because of her, but he assures me that only I am interested.
I looked at photos on Facebook, there were with her, of course. I reacted sharply and stupidly, I was jealous, because I just feel this woman as a threat. After the disco, he called me at 5 in the morning to talk a little and tell me I was acting stupid. I agree with that. But it was about my birthday, when I didn't even get a flower and I was offended. He took up the subject himself and shared, that he thought when we went out to propose marriage to me because he wanted to live his life with me. If I didn't believe I could ask his best friend, who was there too, but I didn't. Today I asked him if what he told me last night was true. And the answer was, "Well, yes, I had such an idea and I really want it, but it wasn't the moment, I ruined the moment." And to add that no ring was bought. In the end, it was just his thoughts that he got so that everything was planned, and I ruined it by wanting to go home, and he asked me what I preferred, and I chose home. And even if we had gone out - there would be no ring. Honestly, I've never thought about it because we've been together recently. I love him, I know he loves me too. It can be seen in his eyes. Almost every woman dreams of marrying a man, whom he loves. Me too. But I just didn't think it would be soon, and when he told me that on the phone, I realized that he really wanted to be with me, and that it was stupid to be jealous of other people who obviously weren't. factor already in his life. And when I asked him soberly - is this true, I turned him around. They have never insulted me in my life.
I had other friends, but this is the only person I loved and I want to be with him in the future. But it just blackened me. He told me "I shouldn't have just told you, I'm sorry" after I told him how much he hurt me. Whatever I've done, I don't deserve to be misled into such a serious matter. I feel shattered. See you on December 24 for 2 days. I don't know how to react. Please calm me down. Give me good advice. I'm green, I have no experience in life, only 22 years old. I am, but I dream of having a family. He is 30 years old. This pain does not subside, I feel like garbage. I must be wrong - tell me where. Am I allowed to be angry? Expectations have taken root in me, it hurts terribly. This is a mockery in my eyes.
1 candiceking answered
Wait a minute, wait now ... You are 22 years old and you regret the "failed" proposal of your frivolous friend? Don't, it doesn't make sense. That's not how it's done ... And from all this, I only understood some stupid incitement to frivolous arguments. He is 30 and behaves like that? He just guessed he was going to offer you? !! Please rethink things, don't just focus on the proposal, think logically and maybe you will understand that you will probably not be with this person soon ....