Have I Lost My Talent?

The Story

Hello :) First of all, let me mention that in the title I used the word 'talent' for the reason that what I created and was really inspired by life on the sheet was before I acquired any specific skills. My case is the following - I am 15 years old. I have been painting all my conscious life ... my childhood dream was to become a fashion designer and with it I fulfilled my whole childhood. I really drew things that are impossible for a child who does not give almost all his energy to play in the drawings. Then my dream was displaced by my mind, which convinced me that I needed to change direction to something more lucrative, less depersonalizing, industrially and realistically achievable, such as graphic design, animation and architecture (as my hobby). I study at a school with a strong study of fine arts and painting in particular. Maybe by the time I was 14, my drawings exceeded my expectations after I finished them. I painted what came to me from the inside, and whenever I looked at them at the end, I was inwardly proud of the emotions that are noticeable in them and their end result. When I applied for high school, I hadn't taken any lessons ... I watched the others what techniques they used and I was dumbfounded. I didn't know what to do at all, but in the end my grade was excellent. My greatest strength has become still life. I had excellent grades, I participated in many competitions ... until the new year started. Having problems in my personal life, I had not painted for a long time. And it was as if my talent had disappeared. My works look frivolous, untalented ... as if they were made by a man without any view of art. My imagination develops, my hands do not. Nothing has come out of me for a year. And looking at his old drawings .. they no longer satisfy me, I don't consider them good ... I don't see myself or my objective view-talent in them. I wonder ... did I make the mistake that this is my vocation, that this is my talent just because I made it a habit Can a man lose his talent? Thank you for reading and I apologize for the voluminous speech. Happy Holidays! :)

Last Updated
November 01, 2020
Author:
arhiana_fox

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