Guilty Of His Mistakes

My problem is not the most serious, but I still feel that I subconsciously have it and it bothers me. I was with a boy, a boy who left me with my friend, who loves me a hell of a lot. Exactly one year ago I started my relationship with him. Everything was like a fairy tale, it made me feel good and loved, I forgot about the problems with an ex-friend of mine who beat and harassed me, I felt safe with him. He had to go abroad and we promised to give ourselves a chance - I waited for him for 5 months. He worked there. Every free second we wrote or talked, it was paradise. He said how much he loved me, that there was no one else for him and that no past mattered to him. I was further away, which made him prove his point. It suddenly collapsed. I told him everything and he was very jealous and someone hit him on the sore spot and told him various things. He said, that he thought I was a serious man, but obviously I wasn't. Meanwhile, his ex decided to go where he was to her cousin. We hadn't spoken to him in a week, and when she left I got a message saying he knew we weren't talking and didn't owe me an explanation, but he didn't care what I thought or how I felt, and he told me he had a mind. and she is not there with him. Anyway, he came back with her after hearing all the things she had probably told him. I was suffering, crying, looking for him, but he was trying to drive me crazy. She looked at me in her own way and stood beside her, fully aware that she didn't care — and I knew it. Their story ended very quickly, we are in the same company and we were together every day, which bothered me even more. It happened that we were somewhere far away and he took me to us then without a word to peel off - I had given up. And just as I got over it at first glance, I received the fateful message. He started a friendly conversation, said what made him angry, what he was disappointed with and we decided to give ourselves a chance, but without exposing our relationship from the very beginning. It was great. He went to another city to work, he came to. he sees me, when we see each other we stand for hours, long conversations, long kisses, sex, friendship - there was everything. Amy collapsed again. He began to behave coldly. He started lying about. little things like going to bathe for example. He stopped coming. I told him directly that this was bothering me and he said that he did not want to use me and that there was no point in being deceived. If only I had found a boy who loves me. Roar, hysteria, depression, I got better again. Two weeks ago I found out what the job was - he was sleeping with my best friend, who knows how I barely suffered. She also had a friend from whom she was hiding, Gram did not regret her mistake, apologized to me like I did and explained that it would be interesting for him for 2 months and he would finish it. I also told her that I had been through the same thing and that she had nothing to expect from a man who slept with two girlfriends at the same time. I know what kind of man I was dealing with, I know very well that he does not deserve any suffering and I also know that he is a man who does not know what he wants and gives up a girl who dies for him, but twice and same number is too much. My question is from the reader's point of view whether I am not to blame and whether the problem is not in me, even though he does it with everyone. Thank you for your attention! that I had been through the same thing and that he had nothing to expect from a man who slept with two girlfriends at the same time. I know what kind of man I was dealing with, I know very well that he does not deserve any suffering and I also know that he is a man who does not know what he wants and gives up a girl who dies for him, but twice and same number is too much. My question is from the reader's point of view whether I am not to blame and whether the problem is not in me, even though he does it with everyone. Thank you for your attention! that I had been through the same thing and that he had nothing to expect from a man who slept with two girlfriends at the same time. I know what kind of man I was dealing with, I know very well that he does not deserve any suffering and I also know that he is a man who does not know what he wants and gives up a girl who dies for him, but twice and same number is too much. My question is from the reader's point of view whether I am not to blame and whether the problem is not in me, even though he does it with everyone. Thank you for your attention! My question is from the reader's point of view whether I am not to blame and whether the problem is not in me, even though he does it with everyone. Thank you for your attention! My question is from the point of view of the reader whether I am not to blame and whether the problem is not in me, although he does it with everyone. Thank you for your attention!