From Now On I Will Return Everything

The Story

Whatever knocked called. You know. I will not ask you for advice and ask for answers. I no longer sleep for anyone's opinion. Enough. The reason I'm writing is to see your reaction, as anonymous observers, after everything I've poured into the following lines. Namely - I'm tired of being despised, crushed, looked at with a crooked eye and spat. I'm tired of watching fake and envious smiles, watching everyone eat my bad moments and having fun to inflate their stupid ego, and in the good moments to be spit on, ridiculed and stumbled. I don't trust anyone anymore, and there is a lot of life ahead of me. I know I'm talking too generally, but I don't intend to tell and tell about my personal life, no matter how pathetic it is, and the important thing is how you feel, not who you are and what you are or what happens to you, right? My feeling do you know what it is? That you are born alone and die alone, but you live alone. I hate everyone around me, call me a homophobe. I don't want to suffer anymore. I have heard that in order to love someone, you must first love yourself. I loved myself, I loved others. Until now. With the others, I hated myself. I don't want to think about what will happen next with this constant negative mood, and I'm only 16. You might say that nothing has happened to me yet, but I'll tell you that it's about to happen to you. something and to shine in this life there is no age. To look at some things, too. I don't need another 50 years to convince myself of what I've written so far. In order to tie the text with the title, finally, I consider that I should already behave with everyone around me so nasty, pretended, manipulative, exploitative. There will be no exceptions, because I saw that they were also missing for me - people are exceptions, who truly love and support me. Everyone looks at their work and that's it. I will do the same. And what does this whole picture look like to you, my love I read? PS Moderator do not let her thematic.

Last Updated
August 08, 2020
Author:
gardenofanya

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