For The Family And Dreams

The Story

Hello! I want to share the situation I am in and maybe get some advice. My problem is the following: I am currently studying higher education at the best university in Bulgaria. I tried to get in, and now I have two more years. I started thinking about my future and what I wanted to do. I'm not working yet and that's the problem. I encounter zero understanding from my parents. I try, but I just can't find anything in my specialty, I want to see in practice what I'm learning. It's really hard for me. I feel depressed and dissatisfied with my life, I feel useless. This is not enough for me, but also the constant attacks of my parents that I am still not working. I don't know what my thing is, but I really want to find it. I wanted to go on a brigade to make money, but they refused, because I hadn't worked before and I wouldn't be able to do it. All my life I've only listened to hints that I'm not good at something, how I'm not going to do it, and they just want me to prove myself. I largely blame them for being so insecure about myself and my abilities. I'm worried about disappointing people at work. Now I am looking for master's programs abroad, because I have always dreamed of studying outside Bulgaria at a prestigious university. I really want to have a good career, a job that I love and be independent. When I mentioned it to my parents, they directly refused to listen. According to my father, nothing more than a manicurist will come out of me. He keeps telling me how they make money and live well. They do not understand that my goals are big and despite my high success, they do not believe in me. I don't know what they want from me. They have never been motivated like foreign parents to study, play sports, develop. Always refusals and reproaches.

Last Updated
October 20, 2020