Hello! I don't know how to start my story, so I will drive as it seems to me at the moment as a sequence, as emotions, as feelings, as everything ... We were together for a little over two years. At the moment I am 27 and she is 21. We lived apart, in different cities (it doesn't matter which ones). Sometimes we didn't see each other for a month or two. But still, our relationship was exceptional. Each time we looked forward to the moment when we would see each other and spend a week together. We had plans for the future. To live together, to have our own home, to start a family, to be faithful to each other, no matter what fate brings us. It was really wonderful. Until she decided she wanted to go on a student brigade on the other side of the world. I let her go. I wanted to make sure that 4 months of separation can't change feelings, they cannot change what we have built so far. I was sure that everything would continue as before when he returned. She was sure, too, and even more so — when I had any slight doubts or fears, she was the one who distracted them in an instant. Everything was normal in the first month. We communicated constantly, it seemed that the affection and feelings on both sides were even growing. I was really happy with that fact. I started working on our plans - when she comes home, to live together. I raised a lot of money, found a nice place in her city, friends offered me several options for a good job there. In general, I had arranged what we both dreamed of having as the beginning of our coexistence. But from a moment on, I started to worry - she stopped writing to me, after about 20 days without any news, I received a letter from her explaining that something was happening to her and that she was very confused. What I went through at that moment - I don't even want to go back to that ... I didn't know what was going on, I didn't know how to react ... A new letter followed, assuring me that he loved me, but that we would hardly be able to deal with what is happening to her. The different options have already started to cross my mind. I felt terrible - all this was happening and continues to happen for about 2 weeks. We talked last night and I realized that she had found another one and that she would probably stay with him there, on the other side of the world ... However, she still loved me and was very confused. He asked for time to clarify things. Time, in which I will continue to die of pain and not be able to stop thinking how while I am dying of pain, she is with another, hugs him, kisses him, whispers tender words to him ... I did not have the courage to ask her if she slept with him, but I guess it's ... Well, that's it. I don't know what to do. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I turn in bed almost every night until the morning and sometimes, but only sometimes I manage to fall asleep for a few hours. I lost more than 5 kilograms in these two weeks, I tremble, I am dizzy and I am not able to do anything at all ... Personally, for myself, I estimate the chances for her to return to Bulgaria at maybe 10%. I am ready to forgive her and forget everything. Even if she doesn't come back, I'm still ready to forgive her and wish her happiness. But I really want him back ... I don't know if I have anything to hope for ... p.p. At the same time, I was diagnosed with a serious illness, which, however, I do not want to tell her about. I don't want to do anything out of regret. I do not know what to do...
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Your story is very exciting and many tragic but my advice is to tell her about your disease SHE itself decide if we can support you at this difficult time BECAUSE He wondered if it decides to return to you and find out effect on the disease YOU YOU MAY FEEL LIE AND ALL HER FEELINGS EVAPORATE, YOU CAN BEGIN TO CHEAT YOU THAT YOU DIDN'T TELL HER THE TRUTH, AND YOU WILL BE RIGHT! I WISH QUICK RECOVERY