I am a 27 year old boy and I am afraid of women. That's why I haven't dated a girl yet and I haven't had sexual intercourse. I am shy. I don't go for companions because I'm afraid that they will spend me and just take the money without satisfying me. I have suffered 2 times from such and that is why I do not dare 3 times. If anyone here is interested in going to a companion's together, let me know. I don't go anywhere alone. And the second time they took the money in advance and ran away. I neither lost my virginity nor saw what sex was. They were very rude girls. The women have become very rude and can't turn me on. With them I can be a friend and a good colleague, but nothing more. The world is obviously very rough. Probably not the problem from me. My doors have always been wide open for friendship and more, but no one wants anything. At work, my colleagues often hang out with me, but that's it. I can't think of anything more than friendship. All my colleagues are married, I didn't think anything would happen to them. All this is an obstacle to having a family in the future. As I get older and rise in my career, I want to have a family, but I'm worried that things won't happen. I'm not one of those people who likes to intrude. It does not happen with intrusion. The person on the other side must want you. Alas, no one wants me, not even the companions I pay to get something in return, when in fact I get nothing and just take the money for themselves. The only thing I enjoy and can't take away from me is love. I imagine that there is a girl next to me that I like and she likes me. That alone makes me feel good. At work, I like all my colleagues, without sharing them and without knowing. So far, this is the only thing that makes me feel good, albeit virtually. Within this fantasy and this imagination, I get what I need, but I don't get the physical contact and connection that many people dream of. Maybe that's better for me. All evil is for good.
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And I'm just so I'm 20 when I see a girl near me and I'm ashamed and turn red. If you can find one, some more modest and kind and not very rude, but I don't know where to look for one.