Some kind of rage is raging inside me ... have I been missing sex lately or have deep feelings from time immemorial, I can't answer. I am asking for advice. I found it in the sandstone of the sanatorium when I was 2 or 3 years old. He was about 6. We spent our vacations together for many years. Our parents understood each other and helped everyone with whatever they could. It so happened that we lost contact for about 5-6 years. During this time I completed my higher education on another continent, he had a long relationship and so on to this day. We haven't seen each other since maybe our school years ... It's good that there are social networks and a live connection, so we maintain contact and we can't forget ... In August we organized our vacation together. We will be 4 childhood friends. I'm very happy to finally see you live, but I'm worried that different feelings will be revived in me. When I was a child, I was very anxious to marry this man, and his parents loved me so much that they often said that I was the personification of the daughter they had never had. I love this man as a brother ... that's clear, but is it still possible to love him as a woman ! Sometimes we joke that we were born for each other, where for fun, where really ... I realize that things get to sex the most and then what ... I leave and will another 10 years of silence follow? Or we'll just stop all communication, confused by what happened ... What if I'm destined to be with this person? Is he my soulmate or is fate making a bad joke and testing our friendship? that they often said that I was the personification of the daughter they had never had. I love this man as a brother ... that's clear, but is it still possible to love him as a woman ?! Sometimes we joke that we were born for each other, where for fun, where really ... I realize that things get to sex the most and then what ... I leave and will another 10 years of silence follow? Or we'll just stop all communication, confused by what happened ... What if I'm destined to be with this person? Is he my soulmate or is fate making a bad joke and testing our friendship? that they often said that I was the personification of the daughter they had never had. I love this man as a brother ... that's clear, but is it still possible to love him as a woman ?! Sometimes we joke that we were born for each other, where for fun, where really ... I realize that things get to sex the most and then what ... I leave and will another 10 years of silence follow? Or we'll just stop all communication, confused by what happened ... What if I'm destined to be with this person? Is he my soulmate or is fate making a bad joke and testing our friendship? that things get to sex the most and then what ... I'm leaving and will another 10 years of silence follow? Or we'll just stop all communication, confused by what happened ... What if I'm destined to be with this person? Is he my soulmate or is fate making a bad joke and testing our friendship? that things get to sex the most and then what ... I'm leaving and will another 10 years of silence follow? Or we'll just stop all communication, confused by what happened ... What if I'm destined to be with this person? Is he my soulmate or is fate making a bad joke and testing our friendship?