Hi, I'm a 15 year old girl and I want to change my life. What mostly controls my life is my mother. I hate this. I hate every second to be haunted by what I do, whether I have cleaned my room like a small child, he tells me every night, when I am already in front of the sink to brush my teeth, to wash my hands, to study. Forgive me, but I have long acquired habits. But if I ask her for advice on anything (such as how to lose weight or how to develop my personality), she responds with annoyance and disgust. My father is ill, she decided to send him to a nursing home and invited my uncle, who has money to live with us. I have no idea what he thinks .. Once he came and shouted at me how he is constantly trampling like a pig and I don't lift my ass to study / it's not true there is a very good success in school /, and then he went to my uncle in the other room and started demonstratively shouting that this monster was constantly sitting on his phone, and so on. He used to do it when my father was home. Often after that my nerves can't stand it and I respond. She attacks me, she wants to hit me. When I was younger, he would throw himself and pinch my head to the ground, throw me out and through the front door I naturally wanted to protect myself and lock myself in the bathroom (I was afraid of the dark, she turned off the lamp I went into hysteria I unlocked the door then she went inside and you flood me with cold water to calm down). I know I'm guilty, I can't control myself. I'm already trying harder to fix things, just like I'm silent, but still there are similar situations every day "that poison her life". This really burdens me. I love my mother. She is the only person close to me, but it seems that she wants to get rid of me. I really don't want to go through another scandal the next day. Basically I'm trying to talk, to discuss what's going on. I want a change, what should I do?
1 reallyhotcock19 answered
Poor thing, try to talk to your mother about this topic and say something, for example, that you don't like it, after all no mother wants to get rid of her child, she probably just wants to raise you, but she doesn't do it right.