Falling In Love Or Delusion

The Story

Hello, I am writing here because no one knows me and I need to tell my story and maybe I am looking for advice to find a way out of the whole thing. I am a student and I work in two places. I have a friend with whom we have been living together for 3 years now, he is my student love and I never imagined that I could fall for another boy because I am not deprived of anything. My job is to communicate with a lot of people and be with them for 10 hours a day and we are like a small family, but my friend is not like that. He is back to me, he likes to be at home, he doesn't go out very much, and when we go out with my friends he starts muttering about anything, anyway. It all started with me and I know I'm guilty. One day as I was at work I started to look at one of my colleagues with different eyes and I started to like him, a week later we went out to a restaurant the whole course and then something just happened and he looked at me with different eyes, we had fun all night he finally sent me home and nothing happened, the next day we talked and I told him I had sympathy to him and to him it became interesting and from there the story began. We started going out and talking about all sorts of things and it just happened to kiss, but nothing more. Midnight chats started, going out constantly and we became very attached to each other. He started asking me if things were going well with us if I would like to live with him, he wanted to introduce me to his parents and admitted that he was in love. I also fell in love and decided that it would be very mean of me to lie to my friend and do nonsense behind his back and I decided 2 weeks after my first date with my colleague to just admit everything and I did it. And from there things went wrong.

My colleague began to feel guilty about everything that was happening to me and I asked him if he was afraid and he said he was not afraid because he knew what he wanted with me and a day later it was over. Whatever question I asked him, the answer was, "If I tell you, I'll lie to you, I'm confused and I don't know what I want and I don't want to hurt you" or "I'm sorry," and when I ask why he doesn't say anything. I don't know where to go from now on, I don't stop thinking about him, but I can't. We've been together for 10 hours and I don't know what to do. My colleague started to feel guilty about everything that was happening to me and I asked him if he was afraid and he said he was not afraid because he knew what he wanted with me and a day later it was over. Whatever question I asked him, the answer was, "If I tell you, I'll lie to you, I'm confused and I don't know what I want and I don't want to hurt you," or "I'm sorry," and when I ask why he doesn't say anything. I don't know where to go from now on, I don't stop thinking about him, but I can't. We've been together for 10 hours and I don't know what to do. My colleague began to feel guilty about everything that was happening to me and I asked him if he was afraid and he said he was not afraid because he knew what he wanted with me and a day later it was over. Whatever question I asked him, the answer was, "If I tell you, I'll lie to you, I'm confused and I don't know what I want and I don't want to hurt you," or "I'm sorry," and when I ask why he doesn't say anything. I don't know where to go from now on, I don't stop thinking about him, but I can't. We've been together for 10 hours and I don't know what to do.

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August 27, 2020
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