Hello. I'm going to drive in essence, because I think I need to pour out my soul. I'm an 18-year-old girl. Something has been happening to me for some time. I have a lot of problems (both family and personal). I don't know if everything that happens is due to them, but ... I can't sleep normally, and when I manage to fall asleep I have nightmares, I have sleep paralysis ... I isolate myself, I stop going out. I deleted all my social networks, I don't communicate with anyone, let alone share. I open the blinds and sit in the dark inside us all day. I stopped eating, lost 10 kg. I am currently 42 kg. and I don't look like anything. I really want to share everything that happens, everything that strains and weighs me down, but I just don't know where to start. Literally so exhausted from everything that I don't even want to start somewhere and share. I'm just drained. I'm not going to say I don't feel like living, because I don't think it's right, but I'm really wondering right now what I'm doing with my life and why I even exist. When something good happens to me, I'm afraid that something terrible will happen to me after that, and in the end it really always happens that way. I don't find meaning in anything ... Although I didn't feel very much that I had to share ... thank you for reading.
1 looly_pop answered
The Bulgarian language mostly. Brother.