Here I am and he - he leaves in a few days on a brigade, I go to study next year. How long have it been ... it's been 4 months since we've been together. Over time, our contacts diminished. I think I have experienced it, or at least I pray in my heart to do it. I turned the page - I even changed the book. After that, I hurt people who wanted to be next to me, but I couldn't let anyone in too close. I ran, I was afraid of everything. I needed to give back to someone the pain he had caused me. I did it and what? !! What did I win .. NOTHING! I continued on my way - he on his own. So my great love became my greatest pain. But I would not return. Not after all the pain, all the tears. Not after the sudden end. I want him to be happy. It would be better if he was with me if he didn't betray me. I swore to him, I defended him in front of everyone. He was the best for me. And it still is. I have changed, but not for the better. I became a colder person. I do not sleep for others, the important thing is that I am well. I started drinking a lot, I used every convenient moment to fill the glass with whiskey. After the third glass, the tears began to flow on their own. My friends hated him, really. They know how I experienced everything, but I continued to defend it. To say he's not guilty. And so it was. I can't blame him. That was his decision. He thought it would be better for both of us. Well, at least I didn't go down without explaining myself first. I even thought if we were together I would enroll to study part-time somewhere just to be with him. His friends constantly joked that we would have twin girls. I was called by his last name. Everything was so wonderful. We were together everywhere. We were a perfect couple, we were happy. When he told me that he wanted to separate, I told him that I was happy with him, but he did not know how much pain he caused me, He replied with the same, he did not regret anything, he felt good with me. I want him to be the happiest person because he deserves it. Thanks to those who read my story, albeit a little confused. And Happy Holiday to all BULGARIANS - May 24!
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Hello. From what you have written, it seems that you still love him. Although 4 months have passed. Believe me, it will be a long time before you start to forget it and suffer, I tell you from personal experience. I know what's in your soul, I know 4e and you drink a lot. But everything will pass, a lot of water will flow out. Leka is a new libe. Every new love is more real, purer, more burning. No matter how much you want not to deal now, your man will find you. Dear girl, throw away everything that reminds you of him. I did so so that I could get rid of the dark thought that haunted me even in my sleep. Now you need time, stay alone as long as you deem necessary. Gather your thoughts and pass the time, the time you will feel how at some point it will take you so far away from him and from the thoughts about him. Imagine what it was like before you met him.