Every Time I Miss A Little For The Higher Grade. I'm Sick!

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Hello, I am a girl of 15 supposedly 8th grade. My problem is that I always miss a little for a higher grade, fortunately not for everything. In Bulgarian last year, 1 point was not enough for me to 5, this is not only for 1 or 2 tests but for each test, these fours could be fives, at the matriculation exam in mathematics 5 hundredths were not enough for 3 and I entered my old one school. Now in chemistry 1 point is not always enough for 3 or 4, in English I still do not have enough for 5 or 6 and last year I passed with 6. I knew English out of nowhere and I was an excellent student, and now the 2nd term I still have 4, 5, 4, 5, 5, 4 and I don't have a 6th grade, last term he didn't have time to test me for 6 and left me 5 but I thought that this term I would have 6. I'm so angry at 4 and 5 in English that I'm just starting to not I write in class. I always missed 1 point, one dumb point ... I hate myself, for being stupid and not being able to make a normal assessment. Our people are not angry with me for these assessments, but I am angry with myself for them. Our people keep reassuring me and shouting that I'm their smart girl, but they don't realize how stupid I am. My classmates call me that a lot of people envy my grades, but I'm not them and I don't want to have 4 or 5 in English, I don't care at all in other subjects, but English, which I always did, is now my most hated subject. Almost always after tests, as I am furious with my grade, I do not write in her classes. I am always unlucky because I am stupid and I can't do exactly the calculations for the higher grade. I don't even secretly learn from ours anymore, because it doesn't make sense if I don't get a little higher on tests. Ours have friends with a very smart daughter who has no such problems, she is still 5 and 6, and I have to lie about my grades so as not to expose myself to such successful people. I'm tired of this damn school! I study, study and study all day and finally nothing. It's not enough that I don't have any friends and I don't do well in school. Let summer come, I'd rather be bored than study in vain.

Last Updated
September 18, 2020
Author:
angels_dreams

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