Every Day Our Desire For Each Other Grows

I read. I read - I decided to just tell my love story :). I'm 17 years old and I've been with my boyfriend since I was 13, just then I was in the stage to catch as much as possible at this age, obviously a lot of hormones hit us (he is now 21 then he was 17) I became very attached to him and I loved him if you can love at all at this age. A month after we got together we explained that we hate infidelity, lies and everything that everyone hates ... YES, but he really never cheated on me, I obviously formed myself as a very attractive girl - respectively, there were many attractive boys around me. He was crazy that I was dating them and the like, and he was most annoyed that I was going out with his brother. One day he had sent me to us because it was late and the next day my friend broke me because he decided that something had happened between me and his brother ... I was in a lot of pain, I cried all the time and his brother was always by my side. He took me to the villa to forget, but I did not forget, and he admitted to me that many. he liked me. Then I went crazy and the next day we went back to Sofia (I couldn't sit alone with my best friend, the brother of the love of my life, and I know what he feels for me) I did my best to push him away, but not to I lose him and at the same time reunite with my beloved. Well, who has enough will and patience - succeeds.

We got together, but he wouldn't let me see his brother. It was hard for me, but I swallowed it too. About 2 years passed - only with him, I never went out at all, only in a teacher and some people and then - with my man. Yes, but I lost the desire for sex, even for hugs - I felt intolerable. This winter he left for 2 months somewhere and I started going out with my old company again and ... THE BROTHER of discord: D there were scandals, and even their mother intervened by explaining that if I am with his brother he should even be more pleased as he will watch me do what I do. They reached this consensus, but I didn't want it anymore and decided I was old enough to go wild now. Parties, nonsense started ... I cheated on him, I was sick of tearing him up. After a few days he found out why I broke him - he was furious and I felt even worse ... we fought, we went to the store we had a drink (and in principle we don't drink ...) we got drunk and I don't remember how he ended up in us in the morning, we talked and got along. but everything is already ... like in a fairy tale, I have the feeling that I am more hurt by my action than he is. And ... a month ago (just when everything was in order) he went abroad to my aunt and uncle to see something ... and I miss him so much, I'm going crazy now that he's not with me, I love him and I'm sure now, but ... I don't know ... I have to study for another 2 years, and then I don't think to study either inor where he is, and ... this worries me, because if one of them gets colder to the other - with security will be the end.