Do I Still Love Him?

The Story

Hello! I had a friend with whom we were 2 years. We broke up 4 days ago (at my request). We quarreled, I exploded and wanted to separate. He didn't agree with my decision and still doesn't. He asks me every day if I want to go back to him. The problem is that I don't trust him. And I think the lack of trust and constant doubt killed my love for him. The reason I don't trust him, of course, is another girl. He lied to me about her, and he had only known her for a week. He seems to love me very much, I don't know what ... and he decided to go out with her then. He kissed her several times and asked to be together. The girl refused because of me. I don't know how I swallowed everything then and we got together. It was very difficult for me, but maybe time really heals. But 11 months after this incident, and others (smaller) I don't seem to like it. And it was such love ... I've always been sad when we don't see each other for 2-3 days or something. And now I don't seem to miss him, I'm not sad that he's gone. Yes, I'm sick, it's been 2 years, but it's not like before. Do you think it is possible that my love has disappeared due to lack of trust (because it is very important for me to be able to trust the person next to me). Am I just loving him as a friend anymore or am I just deluding myself that I don't love him.

Last Updated
October 27, 2020
Author:
holysecret

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