Do I Live For Human Opinion?

The Story

I've been feeling superfluous lately. It's as if I live alone in this world - I have friends, but lately I've started to find flaws in them. I don't spend as much time with them as they used to, they get annoying and I go home. I sit at home, I don't even study. I live in my own world. I feel very strange. I am obsessed with my appearance. Many people tell me that I am overweight, even my parents already scold me that I eat a lot - I do not eat pots, but jam, but that's another matter. I am told that I have many pimples, I have had a wrinkled nose, many bumps. And how am I expected to have any self-confidence? -even minimally, but not. Until a few months ago, I was not interested in people's opinion. Now I am a complete failure. I live for people. I'm afraid of what they think of me and what they say of me. I don't like this way of life. My sister is 4 years old. I asked her if I was fat and she answered "a little". I was affected too.

My weight is normal according to height ... I don't understand because people have to comment on the others? -who dressed ugly? who is how fat? I really don't feel happy in this world .. sometimes I think why do certain things happen to me ?? I have fatter girlfriends who have boyfriends and self-confidence ... a lot of friends? why am I not one of them? how to stop living for people's opinion ?? I think I'm crazy .. that I'm a psychiatrist .. I even wonder in my mind how I can think about the end of life, so I haven't seen anything from him yet ... I don't want to get to such extremes, but as if some inner force in me makes me feel like crazy and withdraw from people on my own My weight is normal according to height ...

I don't understand because people have to comment on others? -who dressed ugly? who is how fat? I really don't feel happy in this world .. sometimes I think why do certain things happen to me ?? I have fatter girlfriends who have boyfriends and self-confidence ... a lot of friends? why am I not one of them? how to stop living for people's opinion ?? I think I'm crazy .. that I'm a psychiatrist .. I even wonder in my mind how I can think about the end of life, so I haven't seen anything from him yet ... I don't want to get to such extremes, but as if some inner force in me makes me feel like crazy and withdraw from people on my own My weight is normal according to height ...

I don't understand because people have to comment on others? -who dressed ugly? who is how fat? I really don't feel happy in this world .. sometimes I think why do certain things happen to me ?? I have fatter girlfriends who have boyfriends and self-confidence ... a lot of friends? why am I not one of them? how to stop living for people's opinion ?? I think I'm crazy .. that I'm a psychiatrist .. I even wonder in my mind how I can think about the end of life, so I haven't seen anything from him yet ...

I don't want to get to such extremes, but as if some inner force in me makes me feel like crazy and withdraw from people on my own don't understand because people have to comment on others? -who dressed ugly? who is how fat? I really don't feel happy in this world .. sometimes I think why do certain things happen to me ?? I have fatter girlfriends who have boyfriends and self-confidence ... a lot of friends? why am I not one of them? how to stop living for people's opinion ?? I think I'm crazy .. that I'm a psychiatrist ..

I even wonder in my mind how I can think about the end of life, so I haven't seen anything from him yet ... I don't want to get to such extremes, but as if some inner force in me makes me feel like crazy and withdraw from people on my own don't understand because people have to comment on others? -who dressed ugly? who is how fat? I really don't feel happy in this world .. sometimes I think why do certain things happen to me ?? I have fatter girlfriends who have boyfriends and self-confidence ... a lot of friends? why am I not one of them? how to stop living for people's opinion ?? I think I'm crazy .. that I'm a psychiatrist .. I even wonder in my mind how I can think about the end of life, so I haven't seen anything from him yet ... I don't want to get to such extremes, but as if some inner force in me makes me feel like crazy and withdraw from people on my own many friends? why am I not one of them? how to stop living for people's opinion ??

I think I'm crazy .. that I'm a psychiatrist .. I even wonder in my mind how I can think about the end of life, so I haven't seen anything from him yet ... I don't want to get to such extremes, but as if some inner force in me makes me feel like crazy and withdraw from people on my own many friends? why am I not one of them? how to stop living for people's opinion ?? I think I'm crazy .. that I'm a psychiatrist .. I even wonder in my mind how I can think about the end of life, so I haven't seen anything from him yet ... I don't want to get to such extremes, but as if some inner force in me makes me feel like crazy and withdraw from people on my own

Last Updated
July 30, 2020
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tabaia86

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