Did I Make A Mistake?

The Story

I am writing this article late at night. Thoughts that drive me crazy. I met my boyfriend a year and a half ago. I'm half Bulgarian, half (I don't want to be around, despite the anonymity) I'm not. I dumped the university and my family for him. In Bulgaria, neither for my family nor for my friends (although they don't know him at all) I no longer exist. The different interests and paths in life have had their say. Although I have relatives here who I have seen several times in my life before, I feel lonely. His job is such that he is constantly on the road, at first I was jealous of him, because it's one thing to show yourself in a light on Skype, it's another to show what you really are. He was also hellishly jealous, but at the moment everything is within normal limits. 8 months later - we live - with their (the most amazing people, who can meet, treat me like a daughter they never had, although he took quite a few girls to them, I somehow won their hearts). However, the fact that he constantly goes out with friends and "potential clients" eats me inside, I know he doesn't lie to me, he always tells me where he is and calls me with him, sometimes I go, but I stand like a stump and keep quiet because I know he won't what to say. It hurts because I don't have anyone close here, I have 1 girlfriend who was in love with him and when we started "going out" with him, I hid from her.

I sacrificed everything in the name of our relationship, but he doesn't seem to appreciate it. I notice that she is almost trying to separate us. Suddenly she became a very good friend of his ex (with whom they were together for 2 years). I'm alone in a foreign country, I don't know the language well, in people with a different mentality and it's hard for me, I don't have anyone. In order to enroll in university and not pay extraterrestrial money, I have to have his last name, but he doesn't want us to get married until I get pregnant, which we haven't been able to do for 8 months. I love him, words cannot describe my feelings for him, I have sacrificed a lot, I have cried and experienced a lot, but he is everything to me.

At first, he left me and did whatever he wanted. His mother advised me to leave him and pretend I didn't care. According to her, that way he would see that I didn't care and all this would pass him by. Still, he was used to leading such a life. And so it happened. Everything she had told me turned out to be correct. But his ex continues to interfere in my friendships with other girls from here, even though he is studying abroad. A friend of his who is 38 and has never worked and never had a girlfriend, he is constantly dragging us everywhere and expecting my friend to pay for his drinking. Everywhere they try to separate us because almost the people here envy everything or just have no other job. He is sorry to give money for something we really need, but to drink his unemployed friend - a leech - he is not.

And so every day. I don't have a specific question or problem on which I want an opinion, I really needed to pour out everything that eats me from the inside and that I had no one to share with. Be healthy and happy! I don't have a specific question or problem on which I want an opinion, I really needed to pour out everything that eats me from the inside and that I had no one to share with. Be healthy and happy! I don't have a specific question or problem on which I want an opinion, I really needed to pour out everything that eats me from the inside and that I had no one to share with. Be healthy and happy!

Last Updated
August 06, 2020
Author:
jenny_98

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