The topic is quite delicate, but I hope the moderators will release it, because I really need to share my emotions. And precisely because of the delicacy, I can't talk to anyone about it. I am a 29 year old man. All my life I have felt lonely and unhappy, and lately this feeling is getting stronger. And I'm starting to think more and more about how nice it would be to end it all. Like turning off the TV on a stupid show or closing a boring book. I want to reassure readers that I am unlikely to really do it. I'm too cowardly. And the very fact that I am writing here means that part of me still holds out hope of finding meaning in living. Honestly, my problems are not so serious from the side. People have also faced more difficult challenges. But I don't have good things. I can fight, but I lack incentive. Everything is empty and meaningless to me. I don't get along with my family and we hardly keep in touch. On holidays I am often alone. I have few friends, I have a hard time getting close to people. Relationships with women are what bother me the most. I'm the type of good guy that women only use to brush their self-esteem, but they don't create real attraction and passion in a woman, they can't attract her so that she falls in love. I know, it's obviously about genetics. Otherwise I'm not a handsome man, but I support myself, I play sports, I dress decently. People think I'm smart and funny. I'm not rich, but I make normal money. However, this does not change things. If I saw any light in the tunnel and a chance for something to change, I would fight. But I don't see. I can live a miserable existence by being alone and going to prostitutes, I can catch up with the first one I meet, just because she only liked me, without loving her. But I don't think it's worth such a life. About suicide - I do not aim to make someone feel guilty, nor do I want to attract attention with a failed attempt. It's just that my pride is too great. If I do, I'll make sure it's safe, I won't be ashamed to blow myself up. There will be no death letters, posts, etc. I even think about how I can make it look like an accident. I would be happy if no one found out how weak I really was. I thought about an "accident" in the mountains, but I just won't have the courage to jump from a height. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. that such a life is worth it. About suicide - I do not aim to make someone feel guilty, nor do I want to attract attention with a failed attempt. It's just that my pride is too great. If I do, I'll make sure it's safe, I won't be ashamed to blow myself up. There will be no death letters, posts, etc. I even think about how I can make it look like an accident. I would be happy if no one found out how weak I really was. I thought about an "accident" in the mountains, but I just won't have the courage to jump from a height. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. that such a life is worth it. About suicide - I do not aim to make someone feel guilty, nor do I want to attract attention with a failed attempt. It's just that my pride is too great. If I do, I'll make sure it's safe, I won't be ashamed to blow myself up. There will be no death letters, posts, etc. I even think about how I can make it look like an accident. I would be happy if no one found out how weak I really was. I was thinking about an "accident" in the mountains, but I just won't have the courage to jump from a height. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. I will try to be sure, I will not be ashamed if I die. There will be no death letters, posts, etc. I even think about how I can make it look like an accident. I would be happy if no one found out how weak I really was. I was thinking about an "accident" in the mountains, but I just won't have the courage to jump from a height. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. I will try to be sure, I will not be ashamed if I die. There will be no death letters, posts, etc. I even think about how I can make it look like an accident. I would be happy if no one found out how weak I really was. I thought about an "accident" in the mountains, but I just won't have the courage to jump from a height. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. you took the trouble to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. you took the trouble to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously.
1 hellokitty25 answered
Don't despair :) Everyone has a soulmate somewhere in the world. It's only a matter of time before you find her. Just keep looking! Meet girls, go out, make compliments, give flowers ... Focus on the type of girls you like and who will fall for you. Just be patient. But just sitting and waiting is not enough ... take up flirting, etc. It will happen, maybe not the first time, but ...