Desire For Something New

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Hello, I need your advice. I am a 21-year-old girl, I have a 3-year-old friend, he is my first, I went to work abroad last year, I need him, but in the summer I started working, I had a colleague, there was a lot of chemistry. between us, but neither he nor I did anything because I'm busy .. We didn't even talk about it, shared conversations and everyone with their thoughts .. After I went to study, we continued to keep in touch via Skype and Facebook, but our conversations become much more frank. This colleague of mine is not what I look for in a boy, he just attracts me with all his differences from me. I don't want to part with my boyfriend, I care a lot about him, he always helped me, we love each other, we have a great time together. We've seen each other recently, but I think I was cooling off to him, no matter how hard I tried, it wasn't the same thrill as before, I miss that feeling. That's why I want to try something new, I know that if I see this colleague of mine I will not hold back and I will cheat on my friend. I've never been with anyone else. I want to relax and go downstream to feel the thrill of the new again, but I know I will hurt and lose a person I love. And if I do it without telling him, I will hate myself, I do not want to lie or cheat. I'm looking for the best option in which everyone is happy, but I don't think there is one. If my friend wanted to be with someone else because of the thrill, as I described him, I would freak out and understand if he reacted that way.

And the boy I worked with revealed some side of me that I didn't suspect I had, to want something completely different from my moral values. I know that if I see this colleague of mine, I will not hold back and I will cheat on my friend. I've never been with anyone else. I want to relax and go downstream to feel the thrill of the new again, but I know I will hurt and lose a person I love. And if I do it without telling him, I will hate myself, I do not want to lie or cheat. I'm looking for the best option in which everyone is happy, but I don't think there is one. If my friend wanted to be with someone else because of the thrill, as I described him, I would freak out and understand if he reacted that way. And the boy I worked with revealed some side of me that I didn't suspect I had, to want something completely different from my moral values. I know that if I see this colleague of mine, I will not hold back and I will cheat on my friend. I've never been with anyone else. I want to relax and go downstream to feel the thrill of the new again, but I know I will hurt and lose a person I love. And if I do it without telling him, I will hate myself, I do not want to lie or cheat. I'm looking for the best option in which everyone is happy, but I don't think there is one.

If my friend wanted to be with someone else because of the thrill, as I described him, I would freak out and understand if he reacted that way. And the boy I worked with revealed some side of me that I didn't suspect I had, to want something completely different from my moral values. but I know I will hurt and lose a person I love. And if I do it without telling him, I will hate myself, I do not want to lie or cheat. I'm looking for the best option in which everyone is happy, but I don't think there is one. If my friend wanted to be with someone else because of the thrill, as I described him, I would freak out and understand if he reacted that way. And the boy I worked with revealed some side of me that I didn't suspect I had, to want something completely different from my moral values. but I know I will hurt and lose a person I love. And if I do it without telling him, I will hate myself, I do not want to lie or cheat. I'm looking for the best option in which everyone is happy, but I don't think there is one. If my friend wanted to be with someone else because of the thrill, as I described him, I would freak out and understand if he reacted that way. And the boy I worked with revealed some side of me that I didn't suspect I had, to want something completely different from my moral values.

Last Updated
August 22, 2020
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chefgov_ma

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